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Sunday, March 1, 2009

And So It Begins...

Hey guys,

So I haven't worked out in 5 days. Monthly motherfucker arrived and I'm elephant worthy. Food hasn't been crash hot either..... so I've not blogged because I was rocking everything so hard and didn't want to have a negative post fucking that all up.
Tomorrow is very exciting.... tomorrow I start my 12 week challenge!! I am ready to give it my all. I have to go and meet everyone and get a low down tomorrow, so there won't be any extreme work outs just yet. I will go workout before the meeting though. 5 days is a long time!! My body feels like mush!
My first ever bandiversary is coming up in a matter of days!! Whoa!! Crazyness.... this means this time last year I was on opti- yuk. Dreaming of the new me. And cut to a year later, the new Bridget writing about this is doing pretty darn well if you ask me. Sometimes Im a little too hard on myself and think I should have done better. That I should be at my goal. But you know what.... I dont want this to end. I don't want there to be an "end point" of this journey. So I'm not going to think of it like that.... I am having such an amazing time learning about myself and watching the new love of my body....that won't end when I see a certain number on the scales or fit into a certain size of pants. So I've decided- my weight won't end my journey.... it will take me on another road... do u get what I am trying to say? Its hard to put all these huge explosive thoughts here. I couldnt articulate them to have anywhere near the signifcance that they have in my life.... but lets leave this kinda babble for bandiversary day.... lol.....
I am a little hesitant however about this second phrase of my journey. I am stuck on a weight I havent been able to get past in years. I KNOW that has significance. I am doing this challenge to fight that.... so expect some highly emotional posts in the following weeks. I am nervous about losing more weight..... I don't know that Bridget.... thats a daunting thing. But I want it.....
Bring it. Tomorrow it begins..... phase two- the unknown!

2 comments:

Diz said...

I get exactly what you're saying. The journey does not end with the weight goals being met. It's because you are changing mentally and embracing the possibilities of...you. Congrats on the upcoming Bandiversary.

Melanie said...

Nearly 30 kg in nearly a year - you have so much to celebrate. I love it when you express all those thoughts - it really gets me mulling over my own challenges. This past year seems like you've merely opened the gate to your adult life and the path lies ahead - it will be fantastic. I can't wait to follow your progress.