New Blog

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http://www.expressclarity.blogspot.com.au

Surprise!!

Hello all....

Yes a long time away!!!

I have a new blog to document the new step of my journey.... if you'd like it please email me on:

parker_bridget@hotmail.com


Thanks all!

Time Flies...

When you're having fun....

And I am! I've started completing things on my Bucket List, I'm dating (geez its heapsa fun!), enjoying my 5 weeks off work I get given each year as a "let's try and keep you sane a little" break and spending lots of time with my gorgeous friends who I appreciate very much.

I'm back to work soon and need to get back on track eating wise.... at the end of last year I was super stressed (um yeah a false tumor will do that too you) and under a huge amount of pressure with work. I barely ate. I didn't lose weight because my metabolism was fucked. So my new way of thinking is I'll pack a lot of snacks for the day at work seeing that I don't get a lunch break so I can just nibble throughout.

So bandsters..... comment time!! Can you please give me some healthy snack suggestions? I do love the nuts, celery, carrots and salsa type thang but it'll only last for so long!

Update

Hey guys,

So I found out a week or so ago that the tumor is benign. They are leaving the little fella in there and will monitor it and see if it grows. They decided to leave it in there because its right in the middle of my liver.

So a big relief! Now I can focus on more important things! Like living!!

Australian Passport is organised, and my British one will be done this week also. I've been offered 11 jobs so far over in the UK. None of them stand out to me though, so I plan to wait and see what else is on offer.

Banding wise- its tiiiiight!!! Proooobably a little too tight. At first I thought it was due to stress, now I'm not sure. I've definately lost a lot of weight recently. I plan to have fill taken out for I leave for the UK so my thinking is I'll put up with the tightness just for now.

I've started using body wraps from a company called "It Works!" I was unsure if theyd actually work however on my first go I lost 7.5 cms around my waist. I figured if it helps out and I can avoid a tummy tuck then thats brilliant!

Man front- no boys allowed. I've read an amazing book which I highly recommend- "Textbook Romance" by Zoe Foster. It really spelt things out for me. It's probably best for me to stay away from men for now anywho seeing as I'm moving!

Work is wrapping up for the year so I'm busy organising the end of year concert etc. I can't wait for my 5 weeks off. Unsure what I'll do with myself though! Lots of me time! Anyone have any suggestions?

I enrolled in French classes, I'm trying to fill the blank spaces in my life and make sure my life is as enriched as possible. I learnt after my little tumor scare how important I AM and that I need to do things for moi! I also started focusing on my spirituality again and its really helping.

Hope all is well. I do apologise. I forget I have a blog most of the time. But whenever I come on I love to see the support :)

Waiting Waiting Waiting

I'm currently waiting to see my specialist on Oct 5th to see whats happening with this tumor thingy.

It hasnt been a hard wait like I thought it would be. I tried to put it at the back of my mind to be honest. Yes- the idea has always been there, but I decided I needed to stop it consuming my entire world.

So I will let you know what happens when I myself know.

I got a fill on Thursday. I don't know what I weigh- I havent known for almost a year. For me, its based now purely on size. I don't think Id ever be what I wanted in kilos and I always got obsessed with the scales. So I'm aiming for a size 12.

I had .2mls put in. Its made a huge difference. I was never able to go over what I previously had in my band because of severe heartburn and reflux. However now being on Pariet I havent had a problem. So having the extra .2mls in has curved my portion sizes and really helped stop the cravings. I'm really happy about that.
Nothing much else to report in that sense....

I've decided to go to England in May next year- will work for a few months of 2011 then go. Helps with savings. Anyone have any good travel tips or airline recommendations I'd love it hear them.

Had a lovely holiday in Melbs a few weeks ago. Hung out with my best friend. Caught some sights. Fun fun fun.

Trying to get things crossed off my life list. Does anyone else have one- whats on it?

Question: Do any of my readers ever feel they outgrow friendships very fast? Is there something wrong with me? I believe that people come into your life for purpose, and I try hard to maintain a good friendship that is two sided. However I've noticed lately that once again I'm about to lose some friends because that connection isn't there anymore. And as much as I'm trying to save it... it feels like a sinking ship that I can't stop? I've always been told throughout my life I was very mature for my age- and I do find that I have a lot of older friends. I know everyone has faults, I do like everyone else. I dunno... I'm just sad because I feel like I'm losing/lost one of my best friends because I was honest with her. Am I'm grasping at straws.

Random blog. Needed a vent. Plus when you're drunk like I am right now the truth tends to pour out. High five for me for typing fairly okish. Grammar sucks. Oops. Hopefully I made a little sense. I bet I look back in a few days and roll my eyes. Lol.

Hope everyone is well. Would love to hear from you guys xoxox

Blaaaah

I really need to post......

So much for it being my gallbladder.....

They found a tumor on my liver.

I am so confused and messed up. But me being me, is pretending to be wonderful and great and supporting everyone else through this.

I am scared.

The CT I had the other day was meant to tell me what sorta tumor I had. But they looked in the wrong area and said my liver was fine. Which is inaccurate.

I don't know what to think. What to feel. What to do.

I feel really vunerable.

I'll let you know what happens....

Health Update

One thing that I forgot to mention yesterday is that I am having what seems to be issues with my gallbladder. Every few weeks I get crippling pain, bloated, nausea, lack of appetite and am a mess. My Doctor thinks its gallstones which ties in with the reflux and heartburn that I oh so often have.

So this morning I went for an ultrasound to see whats happening in that little abdomen of mine.

I am hoping that it is explainable, and gallstones because then I could have the little motherfucker out. I need it sorted before I go overseas! Which reminds me.... have to sort out my passport today!

I am aiming to get back into blogging over the next week so that I can keep up with my food diaries. I would like to start eating more holistically. I have been eating a lot of Asian food which I adore.

If anyone has any tips, recommendations etc- please feel free to comment me.

Hope all is well! I am trying to catch up on everyones blogs!