OH.MY.GOD.GOD.GOD.GOD.GOD!!

My aunty sent over some old clothes today for mum and I to try on. That in itself was amazing. In the past its been clothes sent for mum and my sister. So that was pretty rad!
The clothes themselves, werent crash hot. Leopard print and I arent friends. But I was trying them on, and they were fitting..... and................. THEY WERE SIZE 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One of the skirts was even a 12! I am in complete and utter denial. I think for awhile I will be. Its friggen awesome! So even though the scales say I've put on a kilo (its muscle baby!) I must have dropped a lot in cms....
Gym this morning. I was so crazy tired but I still went. I had my fitness test. Easy peasy. Had to see how many push ups I could do in a minute- I did 39 (im proud considering i never do them) and how many step ups in a minute (36). I also did 5 mins on the rower for the test. Ive never used it before but Im a fan. Will be using Sat when I go back. After the test I did an hr cardio. Really felt it this time. Pushing myself harder and harder :0)
So its all about the exercise for me.... if I keep up with the everything else seems to fall into place. I eat really well and feel really strong mentally and physically. My confidence definately benefits! Thats a huge positive for me!
As for the work pb incident. I am putting it down to mushrooms as the cause. Ive had a few issues with them in the past. Chicken is usually ok. The last few days band has been tighter. So that might have contributed also.
I might take some more piccies in the next few days for my photo gallery. I will for sure the day of the 12 week challenge! So super excited!
Valentines day this weekend. Argh. Thank fuck for my friend Kristie. We are spending it together. Hilariously seeing "Hes Just Not That Into You". I've never had a successful V day. My first ever V day when I was in a relationship was with my first love- and he broke up with me that day. Fun. I dont see the point in pressuring males to buy you flowers out of responsibilty. And I know Im not alone on that one.
I cant believe those pants were a 14, and the top too..... wow.......... 14...............

Still At It

Ok guy thing over with. Turns out he is a complete and utter low life that thought he would get his sister to write on my wall on Facebook that I was a fruitcake and I needed to "fuck off please and lose my number and and nice tits"....... wow......... I was wrong. All part of the learning. No more will be said on the matter. He doesn't deserve it.
Didn't exercise yesterday. Instead I went and had a masage. Haha.... today I did an hour cardio and work HARD!! My body loved the rest yesterday and rewarded me by craving a run on the treadmill, higher level on bike and likewise on the elliptical. Loving exercise. Love love love. How cool!
Food wise- yesterday I had my first major pb issue at work. I was eating chicken and veggies and got really really nauseous. So I left the room (poor Sharon then had 14 kids who had finished lunch and ready to pack away and make their beds all to herself!!) to throw up, went back to sweep floors, left room the throw up, went back to mop floors. Was sore for a bit afterwards. It was really hard because I had to keep getting on with things. I had kids talking to me and I was scared to answer in fear of throwing up. I was worried I was going to be sick in front of them too. I couldnt even think straight at one point........... I'm NEVER negative about the band. But that was a really awful experience.
So today I went a little safer and had ham, cheese and sweet mustard pickles on ryvitas. I had stuck issues with that also. So the question is.... what is causing the band issues? It cant be hormonal. It's not too tight because I havent had a fill for weeks. I'm putting it down too possibly because of exercise (discuss.... possible?) and stress. Stress from work, stress from the guy that I said I wouldnt talk about anymore that I KNOW my band was telling me to cut ties with because I was having issues everytime we were talking recently, stress from home life. I'm hoping now that the guy is gone that I feel a little better. Home life there is nothing I can do about.
We'll see how I go in the next few days. Tomorrow is my scary busy day at work so I am going to take something really easy to eat to work. I dont get lunch breaks so I gotta force it down whilst getting 14 kids their lunches.
Just you wait MEN.....wait until I've finished with this 12 week challenge.... theres a babe in here yet...

Smiles

Hey Guys,

So still gyming.... yesterday 45 mins (running late for an appointment) and 45 mins today. Loving the exercise. And so happy I signed up to the 12 week challenge. Going to work up the fitness until then- I want to be able to cope with working out 5 days a week. No burning out for me! Its costing me enough money- I know I won't bail on it!
Restriction is pretty sweet!! I pbed salmon last night- but it was all my fault from man stress. Gotta learn how to destress for my bands sake. Im never really hungry, portions are a prefect size. Very happy with that!
Work is pissing me off. Im not getting paid on time. I plan to talk to the boss tomorrow about it. Old Bridget wouldnt have been able to do that. Gotta love new me :0)
Plan of attack this week for the gym is
Monday- day off OR if I feel ok I'll do 30 mins
Tuesday- an hr cardio after work
Wednesday- treadmill at home for 30 mins
Thursday- an hr cardio at gym
Friday- night off
Saturday- hr cardio
Sunday- walk

I LOVE how strong my body feels!!!
Not sure what is happening with the guy. Its all over the place. Hes coming, I dont know when. Im over all the place with it. We are, then we aren't. Ive come to the conclusion that what is meant to be, will be. I cant force anything. So we'll see what happens...

Frustrated

Feeling positive.... but still sick. Been a week tomorrow. Its not band related. No issues with it being too tight. I will being seeing my surgeon next week if this is still going on. I am worried about it now. I feel sick after I eat. A tummy ache.
Went to the gym for an hrs cardio today. I havent started weights because I am a little hesitant. I have a bulging disk and its been really really good lately. I dont want to stuff that up and have issues (not be able to workout or make work harder than it is).
I joined the gym's 12 week challenge today. $50 a week for 12 weeks.... personal training session once a week- you earn points for each time you are at the gym and the cms that you lose. You go in the draw to win $10 000. You are also in teams to help with motivation. One of the mums at preschool has signed up to do so I'll have a gym buddy! Looking forward to it!! So when that starts (March 2nd) I'll have a PT once a week and under her care I will start weights.
Goal is to get AT LEAST 10-15 kilos off in that 3 months. So I feel get a fill just before hand also. Portions could be cut a teeny bit.

Food today
Nothing until lunch.... felt sick
L- 4 ryvitas with vegemite, cottage cheese and tomato
S- cashews
D- quiche and veg

Hoping to feel better soon!
Thinking weekly weigh ins. No scales obessing. Over that...

So much for the record...

No PB since Dec 17th.... felt pretty impressed with that.... YEAH.... funny.... talking about that tonight at the support group.... came home- PB!! Made pita pizza- never had issues. However Dad thought he'd be thoughtful and buy the "lighter choice" pita bread. Sorry- doesnt work. I knew that going in. Funny that- try and be healthy....

Still got an upset stomach. No interest in food. Its not band related. Bec from work feels the same. We both have since Friday- we worked in the same room Friday. Maybe a bug? Why are we still sick?

Feeling better today than I have in the last week. A few reasons why I was so low. Pms is a bitch... we all know that... had this weird stomach bug thingy which makes me feel under the weather, work is horrid and finally....... the guy. Coming to see me, he says hes got it planned and won't tell me when. Plans to just call me up and tell me he's here. Hes staying the weekend at a motel nearby. Its freaking me out because it's real now. I was really worried about it all. But I've decided- whatever happens, happens. If its meant to be, it will. And I will learn from the experience anyway!

Gym tomorrow. An hr cardio!

Whats up?

Hi Guys,

Been missing in action as of late. Felt so freaking flat and low that I didn't even know how to string a sentence together for this blog. Been off since Friday night. Thinking "oh its just pms". Turns out my friend at work has felt the same as me (low, teary, numb, no appetite, wanting to be sick) since Friday night also. We've put it down to work. It's not fun. It's stressful, its boring. We get no support whatsoever.
Also guy issues. Does he, doesn't he. Whats happening? When are we meeting? Then the old scared fat Bridget was trying to come out and say "he won't like you, you arent worth it." Also the scaredness factor. This is so new. First time putting myself out there and actually wanting it to work out. The other dates I haven't really cared. Snapping outta that now. I AM worth it. In fact- is he worth it? Meh.... go with the flow :0)
I didn't go to the gym yesterday afternoon like I promised myself. I was exhausted after work. Felt really emotional and frustrated. So I jumped on the treadmill for 30 mins. I did intervals of 2 mins running and 5 mins walking. I FELT SO MUCH BETTER AFTERWARDS! I have done 15 mins tonight (couldn't miss Packed To The Rafters) and will maybe do another 15 later on tonight.
Food wise has been a little "blah". Ive felt sick in the stomach since Friday. Havent had much of an appetite. Eating though. My co worker is on my back about food. Shes worried that Im not eating and doesnt want me to get sick (because that will mean shes gotta pick up the slack if I get sick). Everytime I eat I don't feel right. Band is ok. No issues with that. Just weird tummy rumblings after I eat.
Anyway.... all for now.....

Still Meh

Pms is a bitch. Getting me down majorly. Can't wait for it to be over with.
Went to gym yesterday- only did 45 mins because I was running late for an appointment.
Food is shitty at the moment. Having major pms food bitchyness. Plus weekends are killer for me. Being home I tend to not eat at regular times and not make proper food choices. That's the next thing that I need to work on.
Gym tomorrow after work. Im hoping that it isnt too full on at work tomorrow. We will have 7 new little ones and that can get kinda hectic!
Tammy- thanks so much for the feedback- I appreciate it. I eat those to go meals hot- but usually by the time I get to eat it at work its semi cold. Either way they are delish! I bought some more today. Let me know how you like them!
Hoping this mood is gone by tomorrow. Maybe its hanging around because I'm home bored... I dunno.... we'll see...