Daaaaamn!

Go home from work in a pretty good mood- only to find that after almost 6 months I get the bill from the anaethesist. I thought I'd gotten away with not having to pay. So I gotta cough up like $226. Great.
I'm currently 97.8 on the scales. Pretty happy with that. I still get scared everytime I hop on that it will be over 100. That was a tough cookie to break!
Since I am not currently suffering any sickness I WILL be going to the gym tomorrow. Just a light one to start off since its been over 6 months off. 15 mins treadmill, 15 mins bike, 15 mins elliptical trainer.
Thats all tonight... will post when I get back from gym. I am totally going. No excuses. Sami has really helped me kick my butt into gear!

-bridget :0)

Not Happening

So yeah.... no date.
After finding out a little more about him I've decided he isn't right for me.
He is suffering depression at the moment. I CANNOT deal with that. I have just myself gotten outta a really bad time mentally and I will not let myself get dragged down by someone else's negativity.
I've realised now though what I want in a man. I want someone who makes me laugh. If you can't make me laugh don't bother because its the most important thing to make. I want someone who is positive, outgoing and confident. I know that I am super shy with guys so someone who is outgoing and confident will make me feel more at ease in the beginning. I want someone who is deep. Someone who I can have super serious conversations with- the ones that time stops for and you get this buzz from when you are listening to them talking so passionately. I want someone older than me. Because I think I'm pretty mature for my 21 years old age. Guys my age don't get me. I want a man.
Seems like a lot of wants. Seems very very picky. But I don't want a lotta "maybes" along the way.
Loving facebook at the moment... there is an application I am addicted to called "Social Me". You look at a photo of someone and "tag it" eg :sweet, cute. I've gotten some cool responses on my photo. My fave happened tonight though. Some random dude who I will never meet, never have a conversation with tagged me as "PROUD". I don't really need to say this to any of you.... I think you know that it was a special moment for me. And without him knowing he made me stop, think, appreciate and smile. Because yes, I am proud.

Thought I'd give you a food diary.
B- cup of tea
S- three cashews (busy day lol no time)
L- light strawberry yoghurt, 4 cruskits with spaghetti on (yummo!)
D- McCains Pizza
D- chocolate

Ok so night time were shitty choices. This is actually the most I've eaten in days. I am feeling a lot better now. That were arse lump in my throat is gone. I have no idea what is was. But I swear my body knows a weekend is coming and finds something to make me sick. So no one mention the "W" word to me. Lol.
Scales are 97.8 or something. I am trying not to focus on it though. It's just a number. It doesn't sum up the joy that I feel at my accomplishments in my self esteem and confidence in 6 months. Such a short time- such a huge impact!

Thats all tonight. Hope everyone is well and happy.

If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy

-skinny biddy :0)

Wow....

Bridget thinks she has a date on Saturday..... FIRST DATE. Fuck man.

Ok.... story is that I havent met the guy. Met him online. We are planning to go to the movies on Saturday. I'm not sure 100% if you can classify that as a date....???

-bridget :0)

Ummm ok?

Hey guys,
Thanks for the comments.
Today I decided not to call the Dr, to see how I went with food today. I didn't really have any issues. Made sure I was chew chew chewing and such. I think it could be my tonsils.
I'm going to go down the path of "why does it always happen to me, I'm always sick". I'm just going to move on. I will go get some meds in a few days if it hasn't gone away.
I will take on board what everyone has said. I think the horrible lip thing was because I started to take vitamin c chewable tablets. Trying to do the right thing with that and I get plagued with unkissable lips! (Not that I've got anyone to kiss, I might soon though....have to wait and see what happens with a certain guy)
Had a great day at work. Mondays and Tuesdays are super relaxed. Wednesdays are my horror days that I dread. I have two children who won't leave my side and scream my ear drums off and cry. I almost got peed on last Wednesday....
I might forget to say it before the big day, so Myf, have a wonderful trip away. You deserve to have the best time. I am so proud of you and what you've accomplished in such a short space of time. I always appreciate the advice you give me. Can't wait to see piccys of your amazing trip when you get back!

Love to all,
-skinny "always drama in the heath field" biddy :0)

Thoughts and Opinons

I think I need fill out.
I'm sitting here and looking at this wonderful spinich and feta filo bake that Dad has made and I can't eat it. I've tried. I've tried to eat things for two days and I either pb them or they get stuck. How can it suddenly be bought on like this? It's super weird!
Bridget thinks she needs to call up Dr Fill tomorrow and try to get in. The only problem is I cannot take any time off, I'm so super busy this week, and it takes 40 mins to get there.
I'll have to see what I can do.
You'd think since my band is super tight I would be losing weight. Not at all. That's weird too....
What the fuck is going on people?

Excuse Number 33445

I am sick.
Third weekend in a row.
Trish suggested I get a Vitamin B booster. I think that's a great idea.
This weekend I'm plagued with a sore sore throat, fatigue and the most horrible looking lips. They are swollen and red and hurt. And I tried to eat and they bled.
Thanks kiddies....

Motivate Me!!!

I SHOULD be at the gym this morning. But I am not. I am making every excuse under the sun. And then when I have no more I simply say "meh, I can't be bothered". I know its now time to step it up and go. BUT.....
So what is it? Is it because I haven't been in a long time? Is it because its a 10 min drive? Is it because I need to get up early to go?
The scales are stalling. I am so so so slowly losing the weight. IT IS TIME TO GO. So what is it?