Grrr

So I've put on a kilo.
How could I have done that??
I'm doing cardio at the gym, not weights. So its not muscle.
I'm not hormonal, and there is no fluid that I can tell.
I am watching my carb intake, making sure Im eating veggies and protein. My portion sizes are normal. I might decrease them a little.
Any help guys? Because I am frustrated.

Slightly Annoyed

I woke up feeling starving. As if I hadn't eaten in days. My tummy grumbled. I hate that. First thing I did was call the surgeons rooms. They were engaged for 40 mins. Annoying.... I called later on in the day and tried to get an appoinment earlier than the fill I have booked in a month. They couldnt do it.
I'm pretty pissed off that I call telling them that I am in need, and they can't seem to fit me in. I wasn't expecting for them to drop everything for me. But this happens every time I try to get an appointment. The receptionist told me Dr Fill would call to organise a fill. Didn't happen. So tomorrow I'm using my new found inner tiger and calling them up to tell them I am unhappy with the service. Lol.
No exercise today. I was exhausted. Tuesdays are hard for me because I have all the cleaning to do in the afternoons at work. So I did get a workout, just not a set 30 mins on a treadmill or bike.
Tomorrow is gym day. I am planning to do an hour on the equipment. I haven't started classes yet because I am a loser and hate going alone. One of the mums at preschool goes to my gym so we are planning to go together. Might talk to her tomorrow and see when she wants to start.
I'm bidding on this lovely dress on ebay for my work xmas party. Its electric blue!! I want to wear something I wouldnt normally wear. Its going to show off some boobies thats for sure!!

-skinny "fill me up buttercup" biddy :0)

Feeling Hot Hot Hot!!

What a hot day!
Because of the heat I had a really yucky headache. I still went to the gym in the heat and with the headache. I didn't take anything for it because I was scared my band was going to bitch it up and reject tablets. So I went and hit the treadmill and the exercise bike. I could only do 30 mins and staggered out of the gym. I'm not sure how I managed to get home. It was one of those "ouch my eyes hurt" kinda ones. I got home and couldnt take it so took some panadol mini caps. Band was happy because Id attempted exercise and they went down a dream.
My band is a little looser. I don't mind that at all. I am making sure the foods I am eating are lovely and nutritious.
Heres tomorrows food diary:
B- water
M/tea- cashews/peanuts and banana bits (small handful) with a low fat strawberry yoghurt
Lunch- salad with salmon and balsamic vinegar (if still hungry either fruit puree or rest of nut mix)
Afternoon tea- if hungry either fruit puree or nut mix (whatever I didnt eat)
Dinner- Shepherds Pie

Water intake- at least 1.5 L of water
Exercise- 45 min walk on treadmill at 5.5

Loving all the changes to food and exercise. Not missing crap at all!
My goal is to be AT LEAST 89.9 for Xmas. So that means in 8 weeks I have to lose 4.5 kilos. With all the changes I've made, and especially the exercise I KNOW I can do it! It would be a dream come true to be close to the 86 mark... thats 35 kilos lost since banding.

-skinny "gonna get to the goal!!"biddy :0)

Smiles

I went clothes shopping yesterday because my clothes just looked plain stupid on me. I am super happy with my bargains! I bought 4 tops (priced at $12 each!), 3 pairs of shoes (gladiator flats- black and white and work shoes), new makeup and a maxi dress all for $210! Gotta love kmart and their constant sales! The tops are such pretty colours! I will take a pic and post them on my photo blog soon.
I am offically a 16 now! Very very very cool! Its all super exciting for me from here guys! Last time I was under 90 and under a size 16 I would have been about 15-16. It was so so so great to be able to go into a store and be able to choose. I actually had to stop myself. I could pick up anything and it would fit. It was so so so very freeing. I'm sure you guys understand.
Since Wednesday I have been working out everday. I've been to the gym three times and days I haven't been able to make it I've used to treadmill at home. I did an hr workout today and added weights into the mix also. My eating has also improved. My food before wasn't bad, but I've refined it further. Making sure I'm getting mainly protien and veggies. I went out last night for dinner. It would have been super easy for me to have something totally shitty but I didn't. I had this yummo "lifestyle wrap"that consisted of ham, feta, baby spinich, tomato, egg and tangy bbq sauce in a toasted wrap. It was heaven. I didn't wanna put shittyness into my body. Think I'm getting somewhere....
Tomorrow is the 2nd day of my spirituality course. We will be doing inner healing. I am a little- wait very- nervous. In the last 7 months I've made such a huge change, I feel that I've dealt with my weight issues. I am worried something is going to pop out at me and fuck everything up. Let's hope it doesnt! Lol.
Course is all day tomorrow so can't get to the gym. Might do a light 30 minute treadmill session after I get back. I'm sticking to this people. I want to be under 90 for Xmas. I WILL be under 90 for Xmas!
Eating isn't worrying me anymore. I think I just had a really unrestricted day the other day. I'm happy with my food at the moment. I will monitor it still like I said to make sure that the scales are going down. They bloody better with my exercise!
Enjoy the rest of your weekend!
-skinny "loving the new clothes!" biddy :0)

Happy Chappy!

Had a good day at work. Wait, scratch that- I had an excellent day. I worked in the older room mainly by myself which I didn't mind. I told my boss about my recent assignment mark (92%) and she was very pleased. She asked if I wanted to go onto the Diploma and that if the girl I am working for atm on maternity leave doesnt come back, she would love me to stay on. I was over the moon!! She also told me she would be happy for me to do diploma as a trainee type situation which is bloody excellent! So now it's just a waiting game to see if I get it or not. I'll honestly be devastated if I don't. I have real high hopes.
Hit the treadmill this afternoon after work. It would have been REALLY easy for me to not do it- I was physically exhausting. I do find it hard to do after work, but I am going to push past that. Tomorrow is a day off, planning to go to the gym in the morning, then go buy some clothes (mine are too big now!), get a massage and go out to dinner and a movie with a friend.

Food Diary
B- cup of tea
Morning Tea- yoghurt an handful of cashews, peanuts and dried banana
Lunch- 2 cruskits, chicken and sweet corn soup (didnt get to finish it because I was busy at work so I was hungry when I got home)
Afternoon Tea- 2 cruskits with cheese and vegemite
Dinner- Fettucine Bosciola
After dinner- icecream (yeah im weird. I only eat icecream when its cold.)

I'm wondering if I am eating too much? My restriction does seem to have worn off compared to what it was last week. I am booked for a fill on the 24th of November. But I don't know if its wise to go that long. I am going to keep monitoring it and check the scales a little more often to see if my increase eating is affecting my band in a negative way. I know that with increased activity (exercise) I will burn more off therefore want to eat more. But yeah, we'll see how to goes. What do you guys think?

Ok I'm out. Looking forward to the 3 days I have off before I start 5 days a week. Man, now that will be interesting!

-skinny "loving my new found motivation" biddy :0)

Bridgy's Got Her Mojo Back!!!

So I think I became complacent. I was over the honeymoon period and finding it hard to motivate myself. As much as I was preaching that the band is a tool, I wasn't listening to my own advice. Yes, I changed my food choices, but there wasn't as much exercise as there could have been. I've been thinking in the last few days that I don't want to look back on my first year and regret it. Not having worked as hard as I could to get as much weight off as I can. I want to look back and be able to say "I tried my best".
So with that said I headed off to the gym today for a 45 minute work out. The plan is at least 3 times a week at the gym and every other day the treadmill at home. Yes, 7 days a week.
Also tightening up the eating further. Normally I have major issues with salads (weird, huh). I took a chance and took salad and pink salmon for lunch today. I put balsamic vinegar on it which weirdly helped it go down. I didn't have any issues at all with it! So making sure I take salads as much as I can.

Todays food diary
B- nice big warm cup of tea on such a cold cold day!
Morning Tea- yoghurt and cashews (oh and a cupcake for one of the chns birthdays @ preschool)
Lunch- Salmon and salad
Dinner- fetta and spinich fish with veggies
Water- 1.5 L

I'm pretty proud of my efforts today. Keeping it up because I feel bloody awesome tonight!

-skinny "yeah hah!!" biddy :0)

Good News

Dad went to the doctors today for results of recent blood tests- No more diabetes! I'm so so so incredibly happy for him. For years I was scared shitless that he wasn't going to be around to see my children or walk my down the aisle (even though I still reckon I will end up as the "cat woman") . But this is brilliant. Big big weight off my shoulders (now lets get rid of the other 25 kilos of weight! hehe)
Today I met up with the other facilitator of the new support group I'm involved with. She was banded a week before me and has lost 40 kilos. Well I felt like shit. Thats such an incredible loss. But in talking to her further she explained that she works out everyday and sometimes twice a day. Now as much as I wish I could do that- I definately couldn't do it. I just don't have the time, or honestly the energy. I am so used to guilting myself over things. I think I am automatically doing it over the exercise thing.
Anywhoo. The goal is to be under 90 for Xmas. I would love love love to be around 85. But thats not going to happen. I'll settle with 89. Or even 89.9!!
I know I keep saying "I have to go the the gym", Well I do. So I am. Tomorrow after work. Friday morning, and Saturday morning. 3 times this week. Better than nothing.

skinny "gonna kick that goal in the arse"biddy :0)