FINALLY

Ok so I'm having a pretty brilliant week. Not only did I jump on the scales this morning to see 91.5----- (with a loss this week of 1.9 kilos. Eating will make you lose weight people, remember that!) BUT I just found out that I have the job at preschool!!!!!!!!
I am so stoked. Things have done such a 180 in my life. In such a short space of time I've found myself. I've found a part of myself that once I didn't even dare dream of. I've found smiles, laughter, joy, happiness, success, confidence, friends, life. Life.
My mind cannot even begin to process this journey so far. I think when it finally hits me it's going to hit hard.
I am so close to my Christmas goal. 1.6 kilos away from being under 90 kilos. 500 grams away from having lost 30 kilos in 9 months.

I'm going out tonight to celebrate!

-skinny biddy

Good results keep on coming in!

I weighed in today at 92.5! Yay! So since I've started eating breakfast on Monday, I've lost 900 grams! Maybe we should start a facebook fan group for breakfast? I'd totally join now!

Breakfast- 1/2 mango
Lunch- 4 cruskits with cheese, ham and sweet mustard pickles
Snack -popcorn
Dinner- I'm attempting Chicken Bolognaise but I'm really not hungry. Think I'll leave it.

Funny how different each day is. Yesterday I had no issues at all with band and could eat my food no problem. Today I forgot to eat as much because I didn't feel hungry at all, but eventually remembered and did. Lol. Usually I could eat a heap of popcorn. Not anymore. Hadn't had it since last fill and I can tell the difference. For a little while there I thought I wasnt ever going to eat to my sweet spot. Totally feel like I'm there! Loving it all right now!

-skinny "I'm getting there!!!!"biddy :0)

The Magic of Breakfast

Ok.... I'm converted. I am a fan of breakfast. I've lost 500 grams in the last few days- since I've started eating breakfast. I'm not eating much, but at least something is going into my stomach.

Todays food:

Breakfast- 1/3 of a mashed banana
Snack- handful nuts
Lunch- shepherds pie
Snack- chocolate milk (had a craving hehehe)
Dinner- Fish and veggies

Not more work for the week for me. I'm really glad. I've had such a hard few weeks/months that the next few days I plan on relaxing and having a good time. Tomorrow I have no plans except to sleep in and do a tafe assignment. I feel a little guilty (not too much though hehe) because I haven't done a thing for tafe in a month. I'm bored with it.

All for today. Thanks for the motivating comments guys. I appreciate it

-skinny "closer to the xmas goal" biddy :0)

My Lightbulb Afternoon

Came home from an exhausting day at work and wanted to jump into bed for a few hours. I was wiping off my makeup when I noticed something strange below my neck. MY COLLARBONES. Lol. Ok, I have this thing about collarbones. I've never really seen mine and always wanted to be apart of that crowd. So I was super stoked!
Next cool thing was that I bought this sweet dress off ebay- orange and grey, in a size 14. I thought I'd use it as inspiration for my Christmas goal. I got it this afternoon. Thought for a little laugh I'd try it on. Holy fuck it fits! Me+ size 14...... whoa. Havent fitted into one of those babies since I was 15/16! Huge huge thing! Makes those frustrating numbers on the scales mean a whole lot less.

Todays food:

Breakfast- 1/2 a mango (i used to HATE mango. I've been craving it- super cool!)
Snack- 4 grapes plus a little birthday cake from a kiddies bday today
Lunch- 3 cruskits with pink salmon plus lettuce and a kraft slice of cheese (all i can say is ewwww processed- somethings changed with the old tastebuds!)
Snack- handful nuts
Dinner- Shepherds Pie + veggies

Thanks so much to those who have given me feedback for my food. Yes lpg- I've realised they do go down a little too well those crackers and cheese, thats why I opted for nuts today. Handful keep me full for ages!
Anonymus... thanks so much. I've cut out the juice, keeping the nut/dried fruit combo but only every other day I think. Will go back to yoghurt (needed a break, was having it everyday) and rice cakes in arvo.

Smiles all around...
-skinny "getting somewhere and loving the journey, slow as I might feel it is going" biddy :0)

Smiles

Had a great day today. The work issue resolved itself without my having to do anything. The woman at work was in a brilliant mood and told me that last week she was very hormonal. So not me, hormones. Damn those bitches! They cause such issues!
Food for today

B- juice (apple, orange, pineapple) - lbg- totally taking on your advice, it was way too sweet for me so im sticking too soft fruit for breakkie
S- grapes,cashews and dried banana
L- egg and lettuce cruskits (4)- i totally didnt need 4. 2 would have been enough
S- crackers and cheese
D- attempt at chicken meatballs


Am I eating too much? Should I reduce portion size and eat more often?

Tweeking It

I don't normally have anything for breakfast. I usually drink liquids up until lunchtime. I haven't been eating nearly enough fruit and veggies so I went out today and bought a ton of fruit to make a morning fruit juice to take to work and have as my breakfast. That way I have something in my little tum tum and I'm getting the majority of my daily fruit needs.
I will also attempt to keep an online food log so you can let me know how I am going. Hehe.
Back to the gym tomorrow. Will go after work and do minimum of 45 minutes. I plan to go AT LEAST 3 times a week. Now that I am back to doing 3 days a week and my sister issue has died down a little I can get back into my routine. I'm missing it.
Today I went and bought some new jeans. I was jumping up and down with the kiddies last week and they started to fall down. I look like I need to join a gang in them they are so baggy. So off I went to buy them. I bought one pair in Crossroads for $19.95 and thought that was brilliant. Nope, even better- I bought a pair in Millers for $9.95!!! Holy Cow! I'm thinking I might go back on Tuesday afternoon and buy another two pairs, of smaller sizes. With that price I can't turn it down! I also bought some new undies. Kmart- 10 pairs for $20! Sweet!!
Gotta love a bargain...
I'm having issues at work at the moment. Its been hard for me with everything going on with my family life and I havent been my bubbly self. I probably havent been as nice as I could at work. The woman I work with has been a little off with my lately. Not sure if it has to do with me or something else. Apparently she said she didnt want to come to the work xmas party. I hope its nothing to do with me. I have been thinking about it all weekend and have decided tomorrow I am just going to ask her if she is ok, tell her that I know I havent been myself but I am slowly getting there and apologise if I have done anything to upset her. I am not someone who likes the thought that Ive done something to upset someone. It definately would be unintentional. I hope it gets resolved. I hate that I feel so yuck about work.
Stuck on 93.4. Its ok, I'll get passed it. But the increased determination at the moment is because I want to get to my goals. The goals are to be under 90 for Xmas.... so close... 93.5 kilos away! I have a month to do it in. Achieveable? I think so. I just gotta get my arse moving and watch the food I'm putting into my mouth.

-skinny "push me to my goal guys!" biddy :0)

p.s... new november photos up on my photo gallery ......

Rollercoaster

My sister left today, back to Perth (she only came home Saturday). It was only decided last night so it's been very fast and very emotional. I said goodbye to her this morning before I left for work. I arrived at work in big sunnies covering my red swollen eyes and tear stained cheeks.
Work is giving me the shits. I am definately in need of a break. Every little thing is getting to me. I used to enjoy every aspect of it. Now I think the honeymoon period has ended. After the stressful two months I've had without a break I think thats also gotten to me. There might be some resentment there that I couldn't take any time off to take it all in whilst everyone else went on their lovely holidays. I still have no idea as to my plans next year. All still up in the air.
Band wise I am eating very little portions. I drink as much fluid as possible and that it filling for me up until lunchtime at 1.15 pm. Then I have leftovers from previous nights dinner, come home and have a teeny snack, then dinner. I am over food. I'll work on food in a few days. I think with the week I've had food has been the last thing on my mind. Funny though, stress and food used to go hand in hand. Now its not the case. Very good.
The sister would never say it to me but she told mum I looked great and was slightly envious. She's always been the "skinny one" and now the tables have turned. I thought I would feel some kinda power over her now its finally happened. Not the case. I feel sad for her. Shes where I was for all those years. She can't be helped. She wont take it.
Exercise will start again next week when all the drama has died down. I'm also back to 3 days a week so it'll give me days off to fit it in. I am looking forward to it! My membership expires in Feb so hopefully the job situation has worked out because I dont want to be without the gym.
Havent checked the scales in a few days. Weird things are going on. 95, then 93, then 91, then 95, then 93. Scales are broken I think. I'm not in denial, I know somethings up because a few days ago I hopped on and it read 95, tried again and it was 93. Off to buy new ones!
No plans this weekend which Im truly greatful for. I plan to sleep in tomorrow, probably go shopping (even though I really couldnt be bothered lol) for new underwear. My bras are crazy stupid now with the massive change in boobie size so I gotta get measured. I also wanna try Jeans West to see how the clothes are on me. I havent dared enter them in years. I am a little hesitant because I'm scared nothing will fit and I'll go off the rails. Deep down I know thats old Bridgy talking. I will do it. Might wait until I can go shopping with someone though. I dont want to bawl my eyes out in Jeans West alone. Lol.
I recieved a response to the article written in Cleo magazine. It basically said thanks for the feedback but write to the author. I was very disappointed. I know that there will always been losers who write negative articles. I've read a few, that one just pissed me off because it was in a magazine I've read for a long time, I expected more!
Hope everyone has a lovely weekend. Do something special for yourself, you deserve it
-bridget