Weekend News

I haven't really been in the right head space to post a blog. But got my act together and here it is.
Friday I went and saw my surgeon who said he'd do the endoscopy for me. I booked it in for after my birthday.So August 12th I will be in for the day having the biposy. Have to tell the Boss tomorrow. That should be interesting. Surgeon also put me on the scales (which I really didn't want to do because I am sufferering from major fluid retention) but I'd lost another 2 kilos since I was weighed in last. He was really happy with the way everything was going, told me that I'd lost 35% of my total excess body weight and it is usually expected to lose 50% in 12 months so I'm well on my way considering surgery was 4 and a half months ago!
So a few days ago I got down to 100.2. I was so stoked- then the fluid hit. I'm going to leave it til Wednesday/Thursday and HOPEFULLY I will have a wonderful birthday surprise of being 99.9 or even less!
Food wise I can tell that restriction has worn off a lot. Surgeon asked if I wanted a fill Friday but I left it because of upcoming trip. I don't want to be tight for that and not enjoy it. Will watch the food this week, trying to get down to 99.9.
I know that I might not be able to get down to 99.9 before my birthday. But I am really hoping that I can. Please send me positive vibes!!! I don't usually set goals because of the fear of not making them and then totally losing the motivation. But I don't feel that with this one.
Mum is going to give me the money for the gym for 6 months! I am so touched she is doing it. It'll really help me out. I just gotta get it all set up. Its actually the 6 months from my sisters gym contract. Sister isnt using it so Mum is going to transfer it over as mum was paying for it and bern wasnt going. So gotta get bern to sign something- easier said than done! Thats the hard part!
I wanted to leave you tonight with a Katie Melua song. I love love love her and really feel this song represents a lot of my mindset. To me its ME talking to the old me. Here are the lyrics:

A mask is easily place, on a betrayed and broken face
A disguise to hide the past, when you mapped out my skin and made the memories last
Some things are never erased, and I have run when I've been chased.
My recollection of you and me falling off our home made castle.
And even when I'm walking straight-
I always end up in a perfect circle
Oh I try but I just can't wait, to break out of this perfect circle.
Cause giving into old temptation, is like that common twich
The silly stupid realisation, the more you scratch, the more you itch.
Why am I fighting- whats it for? Must have my mask dropped to the floor.
My scars, I shouldn't hide, from the people who are on my side.
Rolling up my sleeves to fight against all the things I've locked up, all the things I've faced
but its time to let it out so we can build a bring new castle
And even when I'm walking straight, I always end up in a perfect circle
Oh I try but I just can't wait- to break out of this perfect circle
Cause giving in to old temptation, is like that common twitch
The silly stupid realization- the more you scratch, the more you itch.
And even when I'm walking straight, I always end up in a perfect circle,
Oh I try but I just can't wait, To break out of this perfect circle
Cause giving in to old temptation is like that common twitch
oh the silly stupid realisation, the more you scratch, the more you itch

-skinny "please let me be under 100 by Sunday!!!" biddy :0)