OK....Definately under 100!!

99.9 today too! So I am offically under 100! I've lost 21 kilos before my 21st birthday. Pretty proud of myself!
Last post from me until I go away for my weekend away! I am really excited!
Will post hopefully Monday with photos.
Can't wait to get my watch on Sunday! It's so pretty. Will post a photo!
Off tonight to get eyebrows done (hair was done today- I'm super blonde!!!! Will take time to get used to- havent been blonde in 2 years) and to order my next charm for Pandora bracelet. Koi fish! I think thats very symbolic for me.


Thankyou to everyone for their continuous support and kind words. Really helps me push through those rotten times!

-skinny "UNDER 100!!!!" biddy :0)

I did it!!! Didn't I?

99.9!!!!!!!!!
I woke up this morning and jumped on the scales only to see 99.9!!!
I went back on the scales 15 mins later to take a photo to put on my photo blog BUT scales went up to 100.1.
Now, I credit that solely to fluid rentention. I am suffering from that motherfucker currently (although not as bad as I used to) and it tends to kick in 15-20 mins after I wake up. So…the question is…..do I count my weight as 99.9 or 100.1?? Because I really want to be honest about this! Maybe weigh in tomorrow and see what it says.. I have the ring for my “under 100 reward” and its stunning. I really want to wear it!! Lol. So what do u think?Two more sleeps until I leave for my birthday trip away with Kristie to Nelson Bay!!! I haven’t been away in at least 3 years so I’m really excited! And guess what!!??!! I bought a SWIMMING COSTUME!!! I havent owned one in at least 9 years. I have been too self conscious to go out in public. Or even to a friends pool. So for me to actually buy one and plan to wear it- massive. And ah no, no photos of this will be shown on my blog! We are planning on going on a whale cruise (provided it isn’t too windy or raining), have a beauty day with manis, pedis, facials and massages, hit the pool and sauna, relax, take lots of photos, eat lots of yummy food and get some time on the beach.
Getting hair done tomorrow- yay! Going blonder. Back to my original hair colour!! Will be posting photos of hair, trip and birthday party in the next upcoming weeks!! So stay tuned!
Banding wise- restriction has eased off a little in the last few days. I can eat bread with no issues at all. And I get really hungry about 3 hours after I eat. So bring on August 15th I say!
Thinking of setting a new mini goal for after my birthday. Something to keep me in line. I have a goal of 85 for Xmas. So I’m thinking 91 kilos for October 3rd. That will mean 30 kilos lost, and close to my 85 kilo goal for Xmas. I don’t want to set an unrealistic goal - 8 kilos in 8 weeks. With the upcoming change to my diet (cutting out all the gluten) and getting the gym up and running, I am going to be focused on getting there. Thoughts?
That’s enough from me now. Seems quiet on my blog these days. Not sure if I have anymore readers or everyone is just hiding??!!??
-skinny “am I 99.9???” biddy :0)

Weekend News

I haven't really been in the right head space to post a blog. But got my act together and here it is.
Friday I went and saw my surgeon who said he'd do the endoscopy for me. I booked it in for after my birthday.So August 12th I will be in for the day having the biposy. Have to tell the Boss tomorrow. That should be interesting. Surgeon also put me on the scales (which I really didn't want to do because I am sufferering from major fluid retention) but I'd lost another 2 kilos since I was weighed in last. He was really happy with the way everything was going, told me that I'd lost 35% of my total excess body weight and it is usually expected to lose 50% in 12 months so I'm well on my way considering surgery was 4 and a half months ago!
So a few days ago I got down to 100.2. I was so stoked- then the fluid hit. I'm going to leave it til Wednesday/Thursday and HOPEFULLY I will have a wonderful birthday surprise of being 99.9 or even less!
Food wise I can tell that restriction has worn off a lot. Surgeon asked if I wanted a fill Friday but I left it because of upcoming trip. I don't want to be tight for that and not enjoy it. Will watch the food this week, trying to get down to 99.9.
I know that I might not be able to get down to 99.9 before my birthday. But I am really hoping that I can. Please send me positive vibes!!! I don't usually set goals because of the fear of not making them and then totally losing the motivation. But I don't feel that with this one.
Mum is going to give me the money for the gym for 6 months! I am so touched she is doing it. It'll really help me out. I just gotta get it all set up. Its actually the 6 months from my sisters gym contract. Sister isnt using it so Mum is going to transfer it over as mum was paying for it and bern wasnt going. So gotta get bern to sign something- easier said than done! Thats the hard part!
I wanted to leave you tonight with a Katie Melua song. I love love love her and really feel this song represents a lot of my mindset. To me its ME talking to the old me. Here are the lyrics:

A mask is easily place, on a betrayed and broken face
A disguise to hide the past, when you mapped out my skin and made the memories last
Some things are never erased, and I have run when I've been chased.
My recollection of you and me falling off our home made castle.
And even when I'm walking straight-
I always end up in a perfect circle
Oh I try but I just can't wait, to break out of this perfect circle.
Cause giving into old temptation, is like that common twich
The silly stupid realisation, the more you scratch, the more you itch.
Why am I fighting- whats it for? Must have my mask dropped to the floor.
My scars, I shouldn't hide, from the people who are on my side.
Rolling up my sleeves to fight against all the things I've locked up, all the things I've faced
but its time to let it out so we can build a bring new castle
And even when I'm walking straight, I always end up in a perfect circle
Oh I try but I just can't wait- to break out of this perfect circle
Cause giving in to old temptation, is like that common twitch
The silly stupid realization- the more you scratch, the more you itch.
And even when I'm walking straight, I always end up in a perfect circle,
Oh I try but I just can't wait, To break out of this perfect circle
Cause giving in to old temptation is like that common twitch
oh the silly stupid realisation, the more you scratch, the more you itch

-skinny "please let me be under 100 by Sunday!!!" biddy :0)

Thoughts...

Thinking of re-joining Fernwood gym. I am not working out at all anymore except for Thursday nights netball. To get this bloddy weight off I need to move. I think it's $38 a fortnight for gym. I could do four classes a week- Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
These are the classes I'm thinking of doing:
Thursday- Boxing
Friday- Step
Saturday- Cycle
Sunday- Pilates

Thoughts?

Frustration comes to the surface

I cannot, just cannot crack the 101. It goes down to 100.7, then up to 101.1. Its tiring. It's frustrating. I'm over it.
Kristie has made me promise I won't weigh myself until next Monday. So Sami and I are doing it together. We are both around the same weight and trying to crack the 100's. She has an unfair advantage, she got a fill today! So until next Monday I'm not hitting the scales.
Haven't posted a food diary in awhile so here it is:
B- water
L- one chicken, lettuce, mayo and cheese toasted sandwich. YES! YOU HEARD IT RIGHT!!! For the first time since the band I ate an actual sandwich! It was beautiful!!
S- cheese and rice crackers
D- huge downfall. Dad was going to cook dinner. Cut to an hour later he comes home with fish cocktails. I only had two. Hated them- soooo oily!
S- mud cake. yeah, i know. Mums cake in fridge. Couldnt help it.

Night times are motherfuckers for me. BUT I have stopped drinking heaps of soft drink. I used to drink so much pepsi maz at night time. Now it's just one a night and the rest of the night I'm drinking water.
I missed my period this month. Meant to have had it last week. First time I've ever had this happen. I'm not sure whats going on. NO, NOT PREGNANT. It could be because of the troches I was taking a few weeks back. Maybe hormones are super confused as to what the bloody hell is going on with my body. Not sure. I started troches again on Saturday. So far no nausea. I will be watching my appetite in the next week to see if I lose restriction again. I am seeing my surgeon on Friday re coeliac but I might see if I can sneak in a fill at the same time if I feel I'm a little too hungry. I don't ever really feel hungry. And do get full. So I'm ok with it at the moment. I would be so so so happy with it if I could lose some more bloody weight! But, I have noticed I sorta have periods of a week or so where I don't lose anything then I jump on scales and I've lost 2 kilos. So it is a good idea to keep off scales. Need to stop over thinking it. Its just that everytime I've set a mini goal weight it's backfired. I want so much to make the goal. SO so so much. Grrrr....
I got my latest tafe assignment back - much better than the last- 89%. I used my own paper this time. My boss thought I should have written it on scented paper. Lol. Maybe on the back of cheques next time?? So all day Thursday I'll spend on next tafe assignment. I don't know if I told you guys but I've actually been doing twice as much work in a week as needed to get course done. Only need to be doing 5.5 hrs to do course in 2 years (wanted to do in two years) BUT I've been doing 10 hours a week- the amount to get it done in a year!! Sooner the better!!
So in summary of this post, Bridget is frustrated at the scales. Bridget will stop weighing herself every morning. Bridget will continue to keep to the food plans she's written for the next month. Bridget will stop eating Mum's birthday cake. Bridget will make sure her dinner is cooked herself so I can avoid another tonight! Bridget loves her blog, and the amazing friends and support she's been given because of it. Bridget will post new photos of herself in the next few weeks.

-skinny "no more scales" biddy :0)

Weekend Re-cap

I had a brilliant weekend! Met some new friends and old ones at a bandster meet up yesterday. Very nice to get all the comments from everyone saying how good I looked. Always good to see people who share a common issue. Shout out to Lee!!
Weekend was very very busy. Mum's birthday Friday so we went out to dinner last night to celebrate. We were going to go on Saturday night but Mum was in a car accident (shes fine) so we decided not to go. Dad and I were going to share a meal last night but they didn't have the seafood platter so I got a lasanga and he got the fish. I couldn't eat all mine so wanted to take it home. Apparently it was against health regulations- so I stole some plastic cups and snuck it out! Had it for lunch today also. Very very nice! From now on I will definately take a container with me when I eat out!
Busy weekend also with preschool work. I have decided from this week on I'm not going to put as much work into it. I do too much. Didn't get a chance to do any tafe work. Will make sure I do lots this week.
Total Body Overhaul- doing very well. Yesterday wasnt so crash hot as I was out to lunch and dinner. Down to 100.7 as of yesterday morning. So so so so close!!! Hoping that I get there in the next few days. I'm writing down a plan of each days meals. I am sticking to it. I am. And that's brilliant!


-skinny "700 grams to go!!!" biddy :0)

Total Body Overhaul

Went to see surgeon today in regards to doing the endoscopy. Receptionist fucked up and I was there with no Dr and no appointment. It is next Friday. All she said on the phone was "can you come in Friday at 8.30?" So I did. And it was wrong. And it took me 40 mins to get there. And I went with Mum who got to bed late night before as she does night shifts. And it was her Birthday. I will be talking to surgeon next week as this is the third incident that has happend... frustrated? Me? No!!!

In other news....
Did anyone see the Jamie Olive show on Wednesday night? Well I sure did. And ever since then I've been thinking about my food and exercise and the need to respect my body. I have decided to do a TOTAL BODY OVERHAUL. And I think it would be a great idea if we all do this together. I was thinking the last few days "eat whatever I want because soon I wont be" but thats how I put in a lot of weight on right before surgery. So I ain't gonna do it. Apart from the MANY time I will be going out in the next month (everyone is having birthdays!!) I am going to be very health concious. Any help would be great. Tips on great foods etc. And I am going to exercise more than I have been. And I mean it this time. I want to look after my body. Its the only body I'll ever have and its gotta last me a very very long time!!!
So, who is with me? Come on guys! We can do this! Just post your name and what you hope to achieve with the total body overhaul.

-skinny "overhauling" biddy :0)