Motivate Me!!!

I SHOULD be at the gym this morning. But I am not. I am making every excuse under the sun. And then when I have no more I simply say "meh, I can't be bothered". I know its now time to step it up and go. BUT.....
So what is it? Is it because I haven't been in a long time? Is it because its a 10 min drive? Is it because I need to get up early to go?
The scales are stalling. I am so so so slowly losing the weight. IT IS TIME TO GO. So what is it?

Howdy Ho!

Hey Guys,

Had a nice day out today with my friend Cass. We went to yum cha (first few bites I had some issues with stucks but seemed to ease after that) then shopping. Oh and I paid bills- fun fun fun.
Before I went out I attempted to take some photos of myself on the automated timer. I will go through them and see if there is a decent one to post. I LOVE seeing myself in whole on the camera. Its shocking to see. I dont look like a big fat balloon anymore!
Wanna do some advertising for two blogs I'm reading at the moment. Nikki's blog and Sami's blog are both great and I want you to check em out and leave comments!! Lol. DO IT!! please...
Two weeks until my 6 month bandiversary. I am really looking forward to it. I am going to see Fill Dr then, but if the restriction is the same as it is at the moment then I will cancel. I am seeing my surgeon a week later for the 6 month review so I might get one then.
Have a great weekend my friends. Thanks so much for all the amazing comments. You don't know how much it means to me. I tear up reading them. It gives me such strength.

-skinny "bringing sexy back" biddy :0)

So....

Last post I vented my frustrations out in regards to the scales... I'm over that now. After a few hours I realised that it was a hormonal moment and that I should STOP focusing on the weight loss.
Last few days I have been trying on lots of clothes that have been in my wardrobe for awhile. They all not only fit, but look stupid. Make me look bigger than I am. So its off to the shops in a few weeks to buy some more clothes! I am now in size 16's. When I hit the 14's I will be stoked! I cannot honestly remember the last time that I was a 14...
Food wise, my band is tight. I am not sure if because I have a cold and hormonal restriction, it has made it tighter. I really have to focus on chewing, and it is taking me 30 mins to eat a meal. I am happy with my level of fill as I know that in a week or so it will wear off a little bit.
This afternoon I was 98.8 after food and with an elephant of fluid. Pretty happy with that.
I'm noticing more and more the level of confidence in myself rising. Today I voiced my unhappiness with a co worker when I found out one of my focus children had stopped coming on the days I work and was re-assigned to another teacher without my knowlege. Tomorrow I am facing the boss on this issue. It seems that because I am the newest member and the youngest I am always the last person to know everything that is going on in the centre. And I don't agree with it. I would have NEVER even contemplated doing this before. Great step forward with me.
Will post again soon. It's getting closer to my 6 months banded...I will take photos on the day. I can't wait to see the difference. I am really really feeling it at the moment- even with the fluid. I can honestly say I feel like skinny biddy. Thats amazing..
I still have 25 or so kilos to go... but it's ok. If I woke up tomorrow and was 65-70 kilos I wouldn't have learnt all the things that I am now. It IS a journey.

-skinny "back on track and no more negativity" biddy :0)

Still

Still 99..... in fact 99.8. SO FRUSTRATING.
I must admit my food choices the last 5 days have been poor. But its mostly due to fluid retention.
So this week my goals are:

• drink more water
• finally get to gym if kiddies haven't given me anything sickness! I wanna go at least twice to start off with
• get focused- no more lazying around. I gotta get tafe work done on days off.
• make better food choices no matter how hormonal i may be

That's it for now... I'm too annoyed at scales.

It's Just Not Happening..

I am very frustrated. Get onto the scales today to see 99.
I thought it was getting a break. But no. AHHHH...
I am OVER the high 90's.. I want 93, 92 or shock- 91!!!!
I've got a cold (yes, sick again) at the moment which isnt helping things. I thought that I would have more restriction because of it but thats not the case. I can eat. I can eat anything.
I think this all boild down to the fact that I am due for a visitor tomorrow. Fluid? Probably. No restriction- that usually happens. I know its apart of being a woman, but fucken hell its frustrating!!!!!!!!!!! Just when I thought I was getting somewhere!
The positive side of it is that I didn't realise I was due tomorrow. Usually I have BAD BAD BAD BAD moods (mum tells me lol) and I find it hard to walk and even breathe the fluid is to bad. But nope, none. It means we are getting somewhere with the symptoms!
Meant to be going to boxing tomorrow. I'm thinking I might be horrible and not go. Need to rest and tackle some tafe work- I do owe 22 hours and 4 assignments!

Thanks for the vent

-skinny "currently addicted to buying books and pandora charms on ebay" biddy :0)

Say Whhhhhaaaaatttt!!

Got a call from my Dr today whilst at work. He confirmed that I do in fact, NOT have Coeliac disease. That my blood tests showed that I possibly could, not in fact that I was positive for it. The nurse said I was positive. So I have been going around thinking that my life was going to be changing. That I've had this all my life and never known. I had lost faith in myself for a little while. I thought "well I've got everything else wrong with me, why not that". I thought that things in my life have never gone well, so that this was just meant to happen because I had been having such a good run.
Grrrr.
So, now I can move on from this. I can go back to what I was going before this mess. I will be, like stated last night, seeing what foods are making me sick and staying away from them as much as possible.
My Dr also was looking at my weight loss results on lapbase (program that tracks weight loss with band, your surgeon will use this to calculate your bmi, your excess weight, the amount you would hope to lose in 2 years, and records each visit- fill measurements and weight.) and he said I was doing very well. He said he wasn't sure when he would see me next, I told him my 6 months was in Sept so due for my "review" then. He was a little surprised. He thought that I had been done longer. I'm thinking its because of my weight loss. 23 kilos in 5 months is good. To me, its really good. And he thought so too.
I think that I'm losing really well because banding life and me were always meant to be. We fit so well. I adore it. When my Dr will ask me how I am feeling about it in my 6 month review, I know that whatever words I can manage to get out without feeling like I am going to burst into tears, won't be enough.
Fitting that "This is the best thing that has ever happend to me" is playing in the background as I write this.

-skinny "filled with love, joy and happiness" biddy :0)



Sometimes the path you're on is not as important as the direction you're heading. ~Kevin Smith

Take a look to the right...

Seen my weight loss ticker lately????

Um ok.... well..........

97.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOO!



Very very very happy!

Now... I've been doing some calculations... the next few months are going to see some interesting occurances...

In 1.4 kilos time I will have lost 25 kilos.

In 1.9 kilos time I will have lost 50% of my excess body weight

In 6.4 kilos time I will have lost 30 kilos and be the lowest weight I've been in 5 years.

In 8.4 kilos time I will be in the 80s... something that before banding seemed completely unrealistic....



I am amazed.

Over my stomach bug which is super. The preschooler who gave it to me still remains at home. Lol.

I am going to start keeping a food diary daily. This is more for me to find out what foods are making me sick and what foods I'm ok with. I want to try and work out what's happening with my body. And if I have a gluten issue or wheat issue.

For instance, tonight I had a sausage. And I feel sick now. So I'm staying away from them.

No call from Dr today about my results in regards to if I have Coeliac disease or not. Like I said though, going to really watch what I am eating and focus on staying away from those foods. Just to see if I feel any better. I have been for a week now and do feel better, and scales are better too.

Going to start leaving you with a quote of the day. I read this one tonight and fell in love with it

Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. ~Author Unknown

-skinny "in the middle of her journey" biddy :0)