Mini Goal Met!

So the goal was to be 96 today. Did I make it??
YES!
95.3!!! Woohoo!!
I know I said I wasn't going to concentrate on scales but I can't help but feel super about this. 95..... I haven't been 95 since I was 19 and I was on Duromine- the WORST thing I ever did (I wanted to kill myself, had panic attacks, didn't eat, didn't sleep, ended up with a bulging disk because I worked too hard at the gym). I am so so so proud. And I honestly can't accept it. It doesn't feel real. I cannot absorb the weight loss from scales. Fuck, its a lot man.
This morning I went and got my nails done. In the last two weeks I've spent more time on me. It's given me a confidence boost making sure I look good all the time. Lol. Sounds so conceited but before I didn't think I deserved it. So nails look hot (and were dirt cheap!) and the fake tan looks awesome. I booked in to get a deluxe pedicure and parrafin wax (only $40- holy moley!) in two weeks also.
I was asked by a few people how my weight has dropped in the last few weeks. Remember a little while ago I was fed up with the plateau? Ok, heres my 'secrets":

• Weekly dinner meal plan. I have my dinners for the week written out and put on the fridge so I can make sure I am prepared and can't use any excuses for an easy not so healthy meal.
• Daily food diary. I write it in my 2008 diary. I write it the night before, making sure that I get as much protein/ calcuim/fruit and veg.
• Cutting out carbs. Of course lots of good foods have carbs but I'm talking about pasta mainly. I am making sure I am only having it once or twice a week.
• Cutting down snacks, keeping to the 3 meals a day. I know this comes with the level of restriction you have. I have an excellent restriction at the moment.
• "Do I really need that?" I ask myself before I eat EACH time. If I can't honestly answer "yes" then I have a think about it, ask myself WHY I want it. Cuts out the "bored" eating and emotional eating. I am lucky and don't have an emotional eating issue.
• Increasing incidental exercise. I am working harder now at work, making sure I am moving around more.

I think thats about it. Something just clicked with me, especially this week. I had enough off the plateau and I wanted to stop.
I have three more days off. I am planning to completely relax, mellow out and focus on being positive. Oh and studying. Lol.

Thanks for your comments on my last post- or any posts for that matter. I adore coming to my page and seeing I have new comments.
Di- I have always wanted to write a book..... thanks for making me think...

-skinny "bring on the next goal!" biddy :0)

Past that mother fucking 96 peeps!!!

Lol... sorry about the title...
So the goal was to be 96 tomorrow. I jumped on scales a day earlier to see 101!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Psyche! I'm actually 95.8! Pretty bloody happy about that seeing that I couldnt get past 96.1! So I am 300 grams away from having lost half my excess weight (thats if I wanna be a skinny 65 kilos- unsure if I want to be that small) and I'm offically past my 25 kilos lost to date which means I need to get another charm for my bracelet! Music note is the next one, and then after the 300 grams (rewarding myself is expensive! Lol. But fun!) I have a guardian angel that I already have ready for that milestone!
I have been making a good effort to pre plan meals to include protein and veg. Trying to cut carbs as I seem to base my meals on them.
Today I've had:
2 eggs and 4 cruskits
handful cashews
garlic prawns

Yes, no veggies I know. Will get that in tomorrow or if hungry later have some fruit.
I am offically a size 16. Pretty happy about that. I have a non scale goal of getting into something small than a size 16. Thinking lately about what size I would like to be. 12 would be great. I think I might make that my aim. But 10..... 10 would be marvelous!
Will post tomorrow with the weight. Really focused so I can lose that 5 kilos in the next 3 weeks!

-skinny biddy :0)

Goal

Howdy!
I made a goal a little while back to weigh in on Friday at 96. This morning I weighed in at 96.4. So I am pretty close to that. I kinda wanna slap myself in the head sometimes. I am all over the shop cyber buddies! One minute I'm happy with my progress, then the next I'm an impatient little bitch! But I will be happy if I'm 96 or lower on Friday.
My next goal I made was 85 for Christmas. I broke that goal down further... so here's the plan:

91 Kilos by October 24 (thats 5 kilos in 3 weeks....)
85 Kilos by Dec 25 (thats a further 6 kilos in 9 weeks....)

Thoughts and opinions??? Tips and help appreciated!

I'm about to have a 5 day break. Looking forward to it heaps! Hope everyone has awesome plans for their long weekend!

-skinny biddy :0)

Tuesday Rant...

These days I don't know what to write.... so please bare with me as I try. I can understand how some people forget to blog after a certain amount of time after banding. Life changes and the band doesn't become number 1.
I've started to notice I'm respecting my body more. I'm a fairly pale gal. I've started to fake tan myself (lol) and also get some more sun. I stayed outta the sun because sun=heat, which means less clothes. Which means more body parts being exposed. I am treating myself Thursday and Friday to a massage, some beauty treatments and getting my nails done ($30 for a full set omg how cheap!)
After tomorrow I have 5 days off!! Super groovy! Taking it easy. Seeing friends and studying.
My uncle has gotten worse. He cant stay at home and he cant stay in the hospital. The hospital can't do anything else for him. So its a really difficult situation.
I've made an effort to aviod lots of carbs. I tend to grab them for lunch or dinner as my body craves them (since I have PCOS). Trying to get more protien and veg as I was concerned about my intake.
Today for lunch I took leftover apricot chicken. I nearly pbed it. I had to leave the room. Havent had issues at work before. It wasnt fun. I was trying to make 14 beds and having a stuck... not fun.

Off now... can't wait til this time tomorrow!

-skinny biddy

Weird

Hey guys,
So still no wireless for me... using the parents computer. Hopefully will format it today. I miss not being able to come on here late at night.
So I've been really confused lately at my state of mind. Ever since my 6 months month bandiversary things seemed to have changed. I am not thinking about my weight all the time. I am not super focused on it or motivated. I am not sure if this is a good thing or not. It feels like that super high that I was on has gone and I'm back to my new life.... get what I'm trying to say? I am having real trouble expressing what I mean!
I had the goal of losing 20 kilos in 24 weeks. But now I'm sorta over it. I of course want to lose more weight, as much as possible. But I just dont have the energy to put into it. I will still make sure I am eating right and going to the gym 3 times a week. But its not going to be on the forefront of my mind. Does that mean that its now become a lifestyle change that I have become used to??? That its now as routine as brushing my teeth?? I think I'm onto something here!
Yesterday I went to my friend Bec's wedding. It was so so so beautiful. We work together and she is going on her honeymoon tomorrow for a month to America. I am going to be so selfish and say that I am going to miss her so much! She makes me sane at work sometimes. I am hoping that work wont be stressful with her gone. We have a casual coming in so I will have to take on extra stuff.
On the love note.... CONGRATS MYF!!! So so so so so happy for you!! I knew that it was going to happen!
Restriction wise, band is having good and bad days. I'm just riding the wave and taking each day as it comes. Tomorrow I will post a food diary.
This week I'm hitting the gym Tuesday,Thursday and Saturday. Didn't go at all last week. Just didnt feel motivated after my yukky family issues. Will be hitting it though this week.
After talking to Kristie last night I have been thinking I need to change my goal from a goal weight to a goal size. Scales havent shifted for a few weeks but I've lost 3 cms off my waist. I am over getting on the scales all the time. It's not doing it for me anymore. I'm getting more joy from seeing the changes in the mirror.

Hope you had a nice weekend. Weather is amazing!

-skinny biddy :0)

I'm back!

Hey guys,

So its been interesting times in Bridget Land since I blogged last. Lots to write about so please forgive me for the long blog!
Friday I had my 6 month banding review. Surgeon was very happy with my results so far. I've lost 42% of my excess body weight. 25 kilos gone! Surgeon asked me about talking at an info session. So I will be at some stage. Not sure when.
Saturday and Sunday I did am "introduction to spirituality" course. It was amazing. I am doing the advanced course in a month and looking forward to it a great deal. I really feel like I've opened up a new door in my life with this one. I was so relaxed coming home Saturday- that night we got a call to say my uncle (dads brother) is in hospital. He has diabetes and liver failure. So that was really hard to hear. Then Sunday I came home, once again relaxed- only to walk in the door and 30 seconds later be told my sister was moving to Perth the next day. It was her 18th Sunday. She moved over there with her bf on Monday morning at 6am. It was such a shock. I took Monday off work because I was just so upset. I still am. I walk past her room and still think she is there. I havent gone into detail on here about my family troubles out of respect, but my sister has mental health issues and has really put us through our paces. It has been more peaceful since shes been gone, but empty also...
So Monday I didnt go to work- instead I went to the hosiptal with mum and dad to see my uncle. Going back to work on Tuesday was difficult. I found it hard to be bubbly and happy like I am meant to working with children. But by the end of the day I felt better.
I have had a sinus headache since Saturday. Having issues the last two days with restriction- everything is getting stuck. So tablets arent gonna work. Im not looking forward to working tomorrow with the kiddies with this blinder. Lights off etc!
Weight wise I've decided no more daily weigh ins. I was beating myself up about the number on the scales too much. So every Wednesday I will weigh in and take it from there. I guess I have also lost a little motivation this week with all the goings on and really not feeling like my normal self. Hopefully she'll return soon.

Thats all for now. Head killing me....

bridget

I'm not dead

Still no net.... Got new modem but having issues setting it up. Lots to tell u but will leave it til u can use laptop.
Missing blogging so much. Had some huge shocks over weekend and would have liked the support.
Talk soon
Bridget