So yeah.... no date.
After finding out a little more about him I've decided he isn't right for me.
He is suffering depression at the moment. I CANNOT deal with that. I have just myself gotten outta a really bad time mentally and I will not let myself get dragged down by someone else's negativity.
I've realised now though what I want in a man. I want someone who makes me laugh. If you can't make me laugh don't bother because its the most important thing to make. I want someone who is positive, outgoing and confident. I know that I am super shy with guys so someone who is outgoing and confident will make me feel more at ease in the beginning. I want someone who is deep. Someone who I can have super serious conversations with- the ones that time stops for and you get this buzz from when you are listening to them talking so passionately. I want someone older than me. Because I think I'm pretty mature for my 21 years old age. Guys my age don't get me. I want a man.
Seems like a lot of wants. Seems very very picky. But I don't want a lotta "maybes" along the way.
Loving facebook at the moment... there is an application I am addicted to called "Social Me". You look at a photo of someone and "tag it" eg :sweet, cute. I've gotten some cool responses on my photo. My fave happened tonight though. Some random dude who I will never meet, never have a conversation with tagged me as "PROUD". I don't really need to say this to any of you.... I think you know that it was a special moment for me. And without him knowing he made me stop, think, appreciate and smile. Because yes, I am proud.
Thought I'd give you a food diary.
B- cup of tea
S- three cashews (busy day lol no time)
L- light strawberry yoghurt, 4 cruskits with spaghetti on (yummo!)
D- McCains Pizza
Ok so night time were shitty choices. This is actually the most I've eaten in days. I am feeling a lot better now. That were arse lump in my throat is gone. I have no idea what is was. But I swear my body knows a weekend is coming and finds something to make me sick. So no one mention the "W" word to me. Lol.
Scales are 97.8 or something. I am trying not to focus on it though. It's just a number. It doesn't sum up the joy that I feel at my accomplishments in my self esteem and confidence in 6 months. Such a short time- such a huge impact!
Thats all tonight. Hope everyone is well and happy.
If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy
-skinny biddy :0)
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
So yeah.... no date.
Posted by Bridget Parker at 8:40 PM