Cleansing Post...

I had three days off exercise. Work was kicking my butt (making 90 easter baskets and bunny masks for the kiddies at preschool) and I was simply exhausted.
Got back into it BIG TIME this morning with my personal trainer. I have a new one and she works me 4 times harder than my last. For this reason I shall call her "Mega Bitch" ..... (in the nicest possible way of course!).... I was at the point where I wanted to either faint or throw up. Luckily enough neither happened and I am here to tell the tale of my survival.
I've been a slack blogger my friends. But I've been in an odd headspace. I was in complete combat mode for awhile there. Lost it I think when I saw after all my hardwork I had only lost 3.1 kilos in a month. I think my old thought process of " I want it all off right now" crept in. Took some time out to re-evaluate this. Back on track... back to 4-5 hours a week at the gym. Why do I do it? Not only for weight loss but headspace. Those three days off were interesting. I started to get into old Bridget mode and looked in the mirror and all I saw was fat. One hour at the gym a day and I feel like I look like hot stuff! The confidence it gives me I feed off. Its my "new food"... my new love... No one is more surprised than I am!!
Eating hasn't been 100%.... but I eat pretty well on a daily basis, few little things creep in on occasion... hey... I'm not on a diet. I got the band not to be on one!
No new from Uni as of yet... probably late next week. Can't wait to tell my boss! Hate secrets but I wanted to make sure I had gotten in before I told her...
Men.... so since Decemeber I've been doing the online dating thing. Its one tough motherfucker. Do you know how many requests I have had to watch guys jerk off on their cams?? Ah yeah.... eye opening. I tried to wade through the bullshit to find a few decent ones. There was the guy who I needed a friend to come bail me outta a date with ( eeeeek), the one who spent the time with me on his laptop then expected sex, the "guy"....the one who I really thought it was going to happen with but had the niggling feeling something was up and he got his sister to post shit all over my facebook wall, the one who used my change to go to timezone......and a few others in between.... After all this, not having one successful date- I decided last night to take myself out of the game. I respect my time enough to know that I would rather being doing more productive stuff than being messed about my immature fellas. They say you find someone when you don't look. Well I'm not looking.... another issue with the net thing is the pressue of the first meet. "Wha if he thinks I'm ugly and fat?"..... all that jazz....
Anyway.... 5 days off. Bliss! I need it to be honest with you. Planning to gym, Easter show tonight (yay!), Circus (hey, dont knock it!), spend time with friends, spend some time with the mum and dad, sleep and smile. Oh and NOT eat chocolate (oh who am I kidding..... who are we all kidding.... tis the season!).....
All for now... I still want to change the layout if anyone can help me....please email me :0)
I'm thinking.... I'd love to hear your stories....I think I'm due for some inspiration... I want to hear how you are all going. I do read everyones blogs even if I don't comment. But for the people who don't have blogs, please comment your story or even email me...



p.s............man I feel awesome after the gym... why did I leave it for 3 whole days!!!