Happy, yes, happy

I found out this afternoon that I am working the 6 months at pre school!! I have to start attending staff meetings as of now and inservices as we have accreditation probably the first few weeks i am there. So I am glad I turned down the traineeship because this is enough to deal with without all this on top of it.
The only down side is that I will be missing my first game of netball. But thats ok, I probably shouldn't be doing it anyway. We start training on Sunday. Very excited! I started working out today in preparation. lol.
I haven't been able to eat much today. Kristie says it could be because of the rain.

Breakfast: 2 cruskits (roast beef and hommus)
Lunch: v8 juice and rice crackers
Dinner: none so far

I have a bit of a headache now so I will make sure im drinking as much water as possible. Trying to get it all in. Now I understand when bandsters say they feel like a fish!! Hahaha.
On the hair front I've decided to let it go. I was looking back at photos of me with the darker hair and I'm not sure if it suited me. This looks pretty natural.

Starting to get peakish. Going to try to eat some dinner!!

-skinny biddy :0)

Poll Up

Poll for hair. If you have any other hair related comments please post here.
(Thats referring to you Kristie lol)

-skinny copper biddy

The Wrap

So first things first, I look at my webpage ticker to see that my page as been viewed 916 times! Thats amazing!!! So to whoever out there in cyber land is reading thanks a bunch. And I hope you enjoy.
Speaking of enjoying things..... not happy about the hair. I've been looking forward to this for a few weeks now and I'm a bit disappointed. I had to go to someone else at the same salon as my hairdresser had a baby. So she simply had to read the instructions left to her and follow. No. No she didn't. Instead of a chocolate base its copper. And I HATE copper. So I'm waiting for some feedback from the mother and from you guys. If I'm not happy should I call and complain? I'm not the type of person who can be assertive. Photo is on the right.
Went to see dietician this morning. Weighed in and lost 1.9 kilos since my fill 4 days ago!!! So I've lost 9.8 according to her scales, home ones are 12.1. I'm going for home scales number. Not because its bigger, but because I will weigh myself at home more than there. Dieitician wants me to eat more protein and a better breakfast so will try to. I've just been having v8 juice but thats not enough. She wants me to get my GP to do some blood works because of the tiredness and check everything else out.
Today was a first for me. First PB (Productive Burp for those not in the know). I came home from being out all day. Tummy grumbled. So I decided to eat something before I got super hungry. Well I made a mini tortilla wrap with ham,cheese,lettuce,cheese and sweet chilli sauce. It tasted amazing. Too amazing. Too fast. So it got stuck. Now every other time I've had this issue I've used coke and its helped. Not this time!! It made it a lot worse. Ten times worse. I ran to sink and moaning and groaning I eventually P.Bed. I definately learnt from today. But I know it'll happen again and again, brains are fickle things. But since I'd done so much reading on it I wasn't scared at all. I knew what was happening, what was going to happen, and why this was occuring. For anyone getting the band. Please read read read. Learn as much as you can. It's so benefical!
Starting netball training (dont worry i wont go too hard at it) on Sunday. Some of the Central Coast Bandsters are starting a team up next Thursday. I LOVE netball. Used to play back when I was 10. Got a couple of trophies and grandfinals action. So it should be fun.
That's it, that's all. Hope everyone in band and non-band world are super!

My First Ever Feeling of Restriction

I woke up this morning exhausted. I am still so tired ALL the time. More on that later. I didn't feel hungry at all. I had a juice instead. I definately could tell I had restriction. Here's todays meals:

Breakfast- 1/4 of my porridge plus 6 cashews
Lunch- 2 cruskits with vegemite, cottage cheese and tomato
Dinner- Atlantic Salmon and veggies.

I really couldn't eat too much of my breakfast and my awesome banding buddy Kristie reminded me that bands are usually tighter in the morning. So that made sense. So by dinner I was hungry but couldn't handle all of it. I had a pretty good attempt though! I am currently feeling quite hungry so will have some water (water intake hasn't been so good and I know how important that is) and then see how it goes.

Now back to this tired thing. I'm sick of it. I really want to start working out on a daily basis but stuggling to function. Mum's close friend is a naturopath. Mum spoke to her about it and said that Centrum is definately not enough. Apparently it is a very weak multivitamin. So she has given me one. I have compared bottles and its laughable. She PROMISED me I would feel better on it. So I'm happy about that. She also gave me iron tablets. Now I tried to take them tonight with little success. Yes, I managed to get them down but man it was super uncomfortable! It still feels like they are in my throat! I am really not a fan of liquid medication, especially natural ones. They taste so bad! But I am going to have to grin and bare it. It's important I stay on top of everything. I don't want to end up in hospital with dehydration or needing iron injections. I've heard of that happening and that is not going to be me.

On a little, quite hilarious note I have a little story for you. Mum is buying me the Pandora bracelet. I told her it was ready and she said she cant afford to buy me the bracelet and charms this week but will layby it for me. She comes into my room a few hrs later with an ad from the paper. She says "I found an ad for specials for Pandora you might want to check out"

Here is the ad:

PANDORA'S

Now a selection of newly arrived ladies

plus all your favourites

Daytime special before 5 pm.

Pleasure is our name

She didn't read the ad properly...................... I'm glad she didn't call and ask what the specials were. She was so close!!!!!!!!!! Hilarious!

On that note I'm off to drink as much water as I can and try and find my winter clothing. I can't believe how cold it has become! I think I threw mine all out. Dammit!

Stay Classy.

-skinny "newly arrived" biddy :0)

My First Fill

Above is a pic of my first fill! It did hurt but Dr expected it to as I was still very sore around the port area. I had 2 mLs put in today. I could definately feel the restriction straight away!
For anyone who hasn't had a fill yet I'll give you a run down. I went in, talked about what I was able to eat (a lot!) and went next door. I weighed myself (exactly the same as last time) and layed down on bed thingy. The pillow was placed under my back so it raised my stomach up. The Dr felt around to find the right spot to stab me with (lol) and marked it out. He put some cold antiseptic on me, waited a minute, then got the injection ready. He put the needle into my port then asked me to raise my head. He then fiddled around and injected the 2 mLs into my port. It did hurt quite a bit but as soon as it was over I was fine. Coming from someone who is afraid of needles I know I did well! The Dr put the biggest piece of gauze on it! lol a bandaid would have been fine....
Straight after my first fill my Dad had his consultation. He is booked in for surgery April 30th!! I'm very happy for him because I know how desperately he wants it. I know he is going to do well! He is going to kick my arse!
I've lost 16% of my total excess weight already! Yay! I am so happy!
Hoping the fill will get my weight to the 15 kilos lost mark. But slow and steady is healthy, I know that.
I've been meeting up with fellow bandsters the last few days. It's really help me feel better. I was feeling very low, had a lot of family stuff going on plus frustrated because of too much restriction. I really didn't want to post so kept away. But I'm back. Getting hair done Tuesday and really looking forward to that. It's one of my fave things to do!

I txt my boss. I am allowed back at work now so let her know. I'm going to take it very easy. lol. As I was typing that she responded. I have a full day of work 14th april. Should be interesting! You probably think I'm a diva because I'm saying its hard but child care is so demanding. I also told her I wasn't going to take the traineeship. She said she'd call me next week to discuss it. She was in a super good mood because shes in melbourne at the moment! So hopefully I still have the work for 6 months. I guess I'll have it wait until next week to find out.
My pandora bracelet is ready to be picked up! Will get it tomorrow!

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

-skinny filly biddy :0)

3 weeks Banded today

It's my 3 week Bandaversary. Happy Happy Joy Joy.

Up until about an hour ago I was still feeling pretty shitty about everything. I actually bawled my eyes out right after I blogged last night. A combination of a lot of things. Feeling like being in limbo waiting for the right fill, family issues, emotional issues with losing the weigh, work issues etc.
I found out I have low iron so that probably has contributed to the tiredness.
I posted on the ccb message boards because it got to a point where I felt I really needed to reach out for help. Mum has been amazing but I need to be around people who have been through it. Mum booked me in to get my hair done on Tuesday after the dietician so I'm pretty excited about that. She's really supportive and I love her so much.
Thank god for that board though! I've met some amazing people through it. I'm meeting El for lunch tomorrow for the first time and after my fill on friday the amazing kristie and i are meeting up for coffee. She has been a life saver for me. We chatted for an hour or so on msn and I felt so much better. A lot perkier and postive. I think because I have something to look forward to it has helped me.
That's all for tonight. I don't want to spoil my good mood by thinking too much.

-skinny biddy

p.s: not taking traineeship. Planning on a career change after america.

My New Mini Goal

I haven't been feeling the blog thing at the moment. It could be because my a little frustrated because I'm desperate for the fill (not long to go I know), I don't know if anyone is reading this anymore and I'm still quite tired.
Yesterday I went out with my awesome friend Nicole. Love you!! We went and got lunch which was a little daunting. It was fine, ordered from the kids menu, fish and chips. I was able to eat the whole thing! No probs at all. Reminder I need a fill!! We also walked around the shops for awhile and that was fine. I was tired by the end of the day.
Got up this morning and did some cleaning. I was fine until this afternoon when I felt wiped out. Mum doesn't get why I am so tired. I tried to explain that its a combination of things. It's the reduced calories, the surgery, the fact im no longer on diabex and some people are still off work at this stage. She understood when I put it all together.
I haven't done anymore exercise since my 20 mins last week! Lol. I DEFINATELY will tomorrow. I promise myself and promise you guys (if anyone is reading). So you can syber slap me if I don't.
I've started to notice the difference in my body. I can't wait to get to under 100! I'm taking small goals, 5 kilos at a time. So my next goal is the 15 kilo mark. I'm hoping after starting my workouts tomorrow as well as the fill Friday I can get there in the next two weeks. So thats my mini goal.
GET TO 15 KILOS WEIGHT LOST SO FAR BY APRIL 14TH.
I will put it up on the right side. Now I'm not going to become suicidal if I don't get to it. Like I said awhile ago, I haven't become obsessed with the grams. I only weigh myself once a week at maxium.
On the job front, found out that the wage isnt as bad as i thought it was. Its the usual wage so thats good. But I don't think I want to put myself though all that stress. It's a lot of work and to do it in half the time. So will ask if I can just work there without doing the traineeship. She does need someone and doesn't have anyone else.I don't think I will stick with Child Care. I feel like I can be more. I don't know what yet but it'll come to me during this process of finding myself. With each kilo I get a little closer to finding the true me.

-skinny biddy :0)

p.s: I think I am feeling pretty low today also as it is my Grandad's birthday. Yeah, April Fools Day. He passed away nearly three years ago. That day changed my life a lot. I miss him a lot. So this blog today is in memory of my dear Grandad.