What a difference a night's sleep makes...

I woke up Thursday feeling better. Wednesday night was hard and I felt emotionally empty and negative energy surrounded me.
I went and got my hair cut. I was just gonna get a cut but I decided to cheer myself up I would get a blowdry. So I got it all pretty and styled ready for my day out. I went out to yum cha with Nikki, then we went shopping and I found the bargain of the year. I know Nikki will agree with me on that one. I put a photo on my photo gallery of me in my bargain dress. It was $70... I was freaking out about spending that much (since I'm losing weight and clothes are constantly fitting one week, being thrown out the next). I fell in love with it (and the awesome shoes I got with it- im actually a smaller size shoe now) and bit the bullet and took it to the checkout. IT WAS $28.88!!!! Holy moly!!! Soooo super groovy!
Had a good day today also. Went to dinner with a friend which was nice. The food itself wasn't great at all. I ordered a breakfast wrap (oooh at night time!!!) and it tasted purely like salt and pepper. It was meant to be egg,ham,feta,baby spinich, tomato and relish in a tortilla wrap- totally yummyness. But it tasted like salt and pepper. So I did something I've never done. I took it back. I didn't get it re made, band too tight today so I really couldn't be bothered. I think my band is a little tighter at the moment due to stress. I will keep on top of that though and monitor it and make sure it goes away soon. I don't wanna live with a tight band. Not safe, not fun and not the way I want to live.

Super tired. Having a relaxing weekend at home doing tafe work. Woohoo!!
Have a super weekend guys.

Love Skinny "love the bargain dress and new haircut" biddy :0)

Not Fair

Woke up with a headache. I think that was the sign I needed to know I was gonna have a shocker.
Went into work feeling shitty only to feel worse when we get the shock of our lives to find out that one of the fathers at preschool died. He had a fit and died. Simple as that. No issues before that. Clean bill of health. Just died.
Then, to make things worse, I had to tell a friend from school about the passing of a girl we were friends with. She passed away a year ago and my friend had no idea..... very hard thing to do.
I didn't go on my date. I was too upset. Plus the whole net thing. It's too forced for me. Too much pressure. The guy is nice though. I will meet up with him.
Thats all tonight..... I'm competely heartbroken. I don't get this life thing sometimes...

There's A Boy...

I told the universe I didn't want one. Then of course what happens.... I meet someone. Lol.
Well technically haven't "met" him. We've been talking online and over the phone for a few days. But we have plans to go "hang out" tomorrow and see a movie. That's a date right.
He's nice, really witty (makes me laugh- excellent sense of humor) and hes a chef. How hilarious is that! But yeah, as excited as I am I'm also nervous. I've never been on a date. 21- yeah- lame I know. I've just been so self conscious.
On the weight front..... not weighing in every morning like I used to. Thats toxic to my progress. I beat myself up about it too much. I saw my aunty and Nan on Sunday, haven't seen them for a month. They thought I looked brilliant. They are both very honest and don't give out compliments freely. So that was a big thing for me. They thought I had lost more weight since they saw me last. Now I've only lost 2-3 kilos since then but my body shape has changed heaps. What I am trying to say is this: Just because it doesn't register on the scales,doesn't mean that you aren't losing. Don't beat yourself up about it. There are a few of you out there that I know are doing this to themselves. STOP.
In saying that tomorrow is my weigh in day so I'll see how I go. Had a rough weekend with the food. Lol. Well no, I lie. The food is better quality now. I'm not eating low fat food. I'm eating better quality food and way smaller portion sizes. It makes my food now enjoyable. And then I can move on.
I am cooking a lot more now too. I started last week. As I said in a previous post, I write down my dinner for each night so I am properly prepared and have only limited pasta nights, nights with fish, nights with meat, nights meat free etc.
Here's my dinner plan this week:

Monday- Ham,Mushroom and Cheese Risotto with a Ceasar Salad
Tuesday- Apricot Chicken with veggies
Wednesday- Fish and Veggies
Thursday- Tortelline Primevera with salad
Friday- Night out with friend
Saturday- Rice Paper Rolls or Seafood Parcels with veggies
Sunday- Tacos

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-skinny "whoot woo- going on a date" biddy :0)

Hmmm

The last few nights I have had "night heartburn". I have no issues with pains, cant eat fine (I think I have perfect restriction) but its just the night issue. So I think I might call up on Tuesday (trust this to happen on long weekend- LOL!) and talk to the Doc about it and see if he thinks I need to be worried and have some fill taken out and a barium swallow. Its not bad hertburm, just annoying. But yeah... we'll see what happens.
Got a few stares today when I was out doing the grocery shopping. Saw some people I hadnt seen since my surgery and got the good old double takes! Mum kept commenting all day about how amazing I was looking. I could totally feel the difference and see it too. So I took some photos tonight, so there are lots to take a look at at my photo gallery. Also have photos of my weight loss rewards bracelet.
Tell me what you think about both issues.

-skinny biddy :0)

Mini Goal Met!

So the goal was to be 96 today. Did I make it??
YES!
95.3!!! Woohoo!!
I know I said I wasn't going to concentrate on scales but I can't help but feel super about this. 95..... I haven't been 95 since I was 19 and I was on Duromine- the WORST thing I ever did (I wanted to kill myself, had panic attacks, didn't eat, didn't sleep, ended up with a bulging disk because I worked too hard at the gym). I am so so so proud. And I honestly can't accept it. It doesn't feel real. I cannot absorb the weight loss from scales. Fuck, its a lot man.
This morning I went and got my nails done. In the last two weeks I've spent more time on me. It's given me a confidence boost making sure I look good all the time. Lol. Sounds so conceited but before I didn't think I deserved it. So nails look hot (and were dirt cheap!) and the fake tan looks awesome. I booked in to get a deluxe pedicure and parrafin wax (only $40- holy moley!) in two weeks also.
I was asked by a few people how my weight has dropped in the last few weeks. Remember a little while ago I was fed up with the plateau? Ok, heres my 'secrets":

• Weekly dinner meal plan. I have my dinners for the week written out and put on the fridge so I can make sure I am prepared and can't use any excuses for an easy not so healthy meal.
• Daily food diary. I write it in my 2008 diary. I write it the night before, making sure that I get as much protein/ calcuim/fruit and veg.
• Cutting out carbs. Of course lots of good foods have carbs but I'm talking about pasta mainly. I am making sure I am only having it once or twice a week.
• Cutting down snacks, keeping to the 3 meals a day. I know this comes with the level of restriction you have. I have an excellent restriction at the moment.
• "Do I really need that?" I ask myself before I eat EACH time. If I can't honestly answer "yes" then I have a think about it, ask myself WHY I want it. Cuts out the "bored" eating and emotional eating. I am lucky and don't have an emotional eating issue.
• Increasing incidental exercise. I am working harder now at work, making sure I am moving around more.

I think thats about it. Something just clicked with me, especially this week. I had enough off the plateau and I wanted to stop.
I have three more days off. I am planning to completely relax, mellow out and focus on being positive. Oh and studying. Lol.

Thanks for your comments on my last post- or any posts for that matter. I adore coming to my page and seeing I have new comments.
Di- I have always wanted to write a book..... thanks for making me think...

-skinny "bring on the next goal!" biddy :0)

Past that mother fucking 96 peeps!!!

Lol... sorry about the title...
So the goal was to be 96 tomorrow. I jumped on scales a day earlier to see 101!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Psyche! I'm actually 95.8! Pretty bloody happy about that seeing that I couldnt get past 96.1! So I am 300 grams away from having lost half my excess weight (thats if I wanna be a skinny 65 kilos- unsure if I want to be that small) and I'm offically past my 25 kilos lost to date which means I need to get another charm for my bracelet! Music note is the next one, and then after the 300 grams (rewarding myself is expensive! Lol. But fun!) I have a guardian angel that I already have ready for that milestone!
I have been making a good effort to pre plan meals to include protein and veg. Trying to cut carbs as I seem to base my meals on them.
Today I've had:
2 eggs and 4 cruskits
handful cashews
garlic prawns

Yes, no veggies I know. Will get that in tomorrow or if hungry later have some fruit.
I am offically a size 16. Pretty happy about that. I have a non scale goal of getting into something small than a size 16. Thinking lately about what size I would like to be. 12 would be great. I think I might make that my aim. But 10..... 10 would be marvelous!
Will post tomorrow with the weight. Really focused so I can lose that 5 kilos in the next 3 weeks!

-skinny biddy :0)

Goal

Howdy!
I made a goal a little while back to weigh in on Friday at 96. This morning I weighed in at 96.4. So I am pretty close to that. I kinda wanna slap myself in the head sometimes. I am all over the shop cyber buddies! One minute I'm happy with my progress, then the next I'm an impatient little bitch! But I will be happy if I'm 96 or lower on Friday.
My next goal I made was 85 for Christmas. I broke that goal down further... so here's the plan:

91 Kilos by October 24 (thats 5 kilos in 3 weeks....)
85 Kilos by Dec 25 (thats a further 6 kilos in 9 weeks....)

Thoughts and opinions??? Tips and help appreciated!

I'm about to have a 5 day break. Looking forward to it heaps! Hope everyone has awesome plans for their long weekend!

-skinny biddy :0)