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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Meltdown...

I was doing so well.....
I felt stronger than I have in two weeks. I felt more in control of my life and my emotions.
Then I had to call my boss..... she was horrible. I cried afterwards. She bullied me and belittled me. I havent been happy there all year. But this was the cherry on top of the cake. I took the last two weeks off after the boy thing with a medical certificate. The doctor feels I am suffering from anxiety and depression. That was stated on the med cert. This meant my boss felt she had/has free range to ask me any personal question under the sun- including if I was seeing a counsellor and what we discussed. I'm done. I'm out.
Crying all day- feeling low. I was just getting a handle on things.... the boy called for my bday too. That didnt help. I'm not contacting him- im waiting for him to contact me. I want to talk to him so badly but it hurts me more....
Tomorrow I'm heading out- handing out resumes.... I dont really mind where I work right now... I just want something low pressure. There is a job at the local pet store.... that wouldnt be too bad at all!
Food wise.... Im getting there.... I screwed myself over the last two weeks... only eating one small meal a day... so now I'm trying to build myself back up to proper meals...finding it hard... forcing myself to eat. But I'll get there. I've apparently lost stacks these last few weeks. I can tell too... look for the positives? Mmm.... not even funny....
I'll push through.... just finding it so hard. I feel strong then get knocked down again.... I know thats life... but I expected things to be different.... I thought my life was finally on the up....

3 comments:

Diz said...

Hey Girl...Happy belated Birthday. I had fun at 22. I wish the same for you. In America, your boss can't fire you when you're out for medical reasons..lawsuit. Nor can they belittle you and delve into the personal stuff...lawsuit. Although I know our society is WAY too litigious, take your power back and don't let this biddy talk to you that way. Yes, you're young, but you are nobody's door mat! You are Bridget! You have accomplished much in 22 years. You've made mistakes...we all do, but you've learned from them. We're with you Bridget! Get ready to ROCK THE WORLD!

mjwdec73 said...

Reading this now, today makes way more sense. Well done, and congratulations. No one deserves to have that in their work life. Ever.

What a cow.

xoxteganxox said...

i think you should speak to the union or ombudsman or watev. but definately talk to someone about the stupid cow. and the disgraceful management of that day care centre.