Monday, September 14, 2009

So Close

I'm so close to giving up. I really am. I'm at a point where I don't care about losing weight. I care about being able to eat a proper meal without being sick.

I am over having to worry that the cold and flu tablets im taking (for the cold I've gotten because I'm not eating properly) will get stuck and I will be in agony.

I know what I have to do. But I'm scared to do it. To get fill out....


Lonicera said...

Don't keep suffering Bridget - go and have the unfill. What's the worse that could happen? That you were wrong, and need a re-fill. It's worth the extra money spent for your peace of mind, isn't it?

Angie said...

I agree Bridg, trusts your instincts and get unfilled, even if you know it could result in a little gain... But ultimately, not being overly tight will lead to a greater loss in the long run.

Anonymous said...

DO IT! Get some fill out. Trust me I know how scary it is but no good can come from not being able to eat at all.

Em :)

Diz said...'ve come so far. You've started trusting your instincts and knowing what's best for you. You know what to do, so trust yourself. We're right here for you. The worst that could happen is you gain a few much better to be healthy with a weight gain than unhealthy without one. Trust yourself.

P.S. Your profile picture is wonderful! You are a true beauty!

Anonymous said...

Hi Skinny Biddy

I don't have a band so probably don't know much but after all this time wouldn't have self control yet? Clearly it seems you need to get some fill out and if you have really dealt with your fat issues then you should be fine without some fill?

Non Banded Babe

Tegan (THE BESTEST FRIEND) said...

shut the fuck up "non banded babe" you're defiantly in the right position to give advice about banding when you dont even have one. how dare you suggest biddy hasn't dealt with "fat issues" as u call them! she's lost 40 kilos, gyms several times a week, works full time and runs several groups and websites for bansters!!!

Maybe you're trying to justify you're own issues by being oppressive and just plain nasty to a girl that has everything you want???

you should take a long hard look at your own life before making stupid ignorant comments about someone else's AWESOME achievements!

peace out bitch!

Passionatetraveller said...

if it's not working then get the fill taken out and let the stomach recover a bit hun you are probably really inflamed at the moment. I got 4 ml taken out after 6 1/2 months pregnant and it's amazing the change it makes hun. Don't suffer just for a goal that in the end should be reached wholistically not in pain and with struggle. Thinking of you. mandi from melbs