Insert Witty Title Here.... I Got Nothing....

Tough day at work. I spent an hour and a half fighting with a 4 yr old. She refused to put her shoes on. I got kicked. I refused to do it for her. So we locked horns. I won of course. No 4 year old is going to kick my arse. I ended up leaving work almost an hour later than I am paid for. So skipped gym and got a frozen coke instead. Lol. (Come on!!! I'd been bargaining with the kid for a long time... my throat was really sore!!) I also got into trouble from my boss for sitting too close to a work friend.... apparently that sends bad messages to the parents, that we are just talking and not working.... bare in mind we were doing bookwork (observations on chn) I was so mad. So I gave boss some dagger looks and didnt talk to her for 5 hours. Then she was lovely as pie....grrr.....
Food

B- cup of tea, berocca
S- cashews, peanuts and dried banana
L- 2 vita weats with boiled chicken, avocado, mayo and spring onion
S- brie and crackers (oh and don't forget the frozen coke hehehe)
D- 2 tacos with meat, cheese, tomato, carrot and lettuce

Exercise- couldn't NOT work out.... something weird is going on with my head.... I'm wanting it badly! Lol.. I did 30 mins on the treadmill. Exercise 4 days in a row. Woot!!

Fluid intake-3 cups of tea, berocca, 3 glasses cordial (its not low kj me donts think- was premade at preschool- will take my own from now on) 1 litre of water (oh and dont forget the frozen coke lol)

Bed time- early again. (For those who don't know me... I normally go to bed really really late... bad for you!)

YES SIREE!!!! I'm on fire!!! And nothing's gonna stop me!!! Scales are out- weighed in this morning two kilos heavier- muscle weighs more than fat.... meh... im looking thinner. Hehe!

Focused and Motivated

B- cup of tea and berocca
S- cashews, peanuts and dried banana
L- two vita weats- tuna with sundried tomato, light philly and spring onion
S- a few crackers with brie
D- sweet and sour stir fry with chicken

Exercise- 45 mins cardio at the gym

Water- 2 Litres

Gym again tomorrow to sort out 12 week challenge stuff. So I HAVE to go.... excellent. And the going to bed early thing is on the cards and Im going to make sure I do it!

Like the title says.... I'm here.... I'm bringing my A game.....

Shake It Up!

So I'm not losing weight. Nothing. Size maybe... but not weight. I am very much over that. I am working out, and eating fairly well. I'm guessing now it's time to step it up further. I am back into daily food diaries, cutting portions down, working out as much as I possibly can. I am not settling at this size. No no no. I was reading a magazine when I saw an ad for Mount Franklin water- the 30 day 2 litre a day challenge. So I signed up! At the moment I'm drinking about a litre a day. If I stick to this challenge I will reward myself with something spesh.
I've noticed I've totally stopped rewarding myself with charms for weight loss. So I gotta get back into that also. That was a really good incentive. I really think life just gets in the way sometimes! But I really want to focus on getting the last 20 off and not letting it pass me by.
I know there is a really good reason why I'm stuck on this weight. This is the weight I was stuck on a few years ago on my very very scary stint of Duromine. I haven't been below this number in a loooong time. It scares me a little. Fear of the unknown. But I want it bad. To be in the 80's. So thats the goal. I want to see 89!!!
Goals for the week:

• 2 litres of water a day- minimum
• 5 workouts - 1 hour long in length
• Cut back on carbs
• Up veggie intake

I have decided to do shakes in the morning. We'll see how it goes.

Any suggestions, tips would be appreciated!

Disapointment

I don't want to go into what happened on my trip to Melbourne. But just to let you know that I arrived there on Thursday afternoon and left on Friday morning...... title of the blog says it all.
I am really upset that I didn't get to meet some of the wonderful bandster friends I've made. Myf- we HAVE to meet at some stage. Your awesomeness I have to see!
One person I couldn't be without is Mandi. Mandi saved me. So Mandi if you're reading- thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou! For taking me into your home and being so caring.
I'm not sure if Kristie you are reading- but there should be more people like you in the world. Seriously. Not everyone does what you did. Not at all. I am very very proud to be your friend. So shut up and stop being so modest- you are AMAZING.
I went days without having sleep, so I'm still in catch up mode. I'm exhausted. I am pushing on however and off to the gym right now. This weekend I don't give a shit about food choices. Whatever, whatever. But I will make sure I'm working out. I haven't been to the gym in a week! I miss it so very much!
Had a dream this morning about doughnuts. That I was at Doughnut King and trying to choose a doughnut. But they were all so nice! The ones I wanted were sold and I couldn't have them. So I settled for other choices. Its not about food. I know that.... dreams have meanings.... thoughts guys?

Catch Ya On The Flipside

Off to Melbourne in the morning for a friends birthday. Will be there for 4 days. Catching up with some fellow bandsters and very excited to finally meet them!!
Not feeling 100%- figured out the tiredness, sore throat and aching is because the kiddies must have given me a present- seem to be getting sick. I'll fight it though!!!
Have a great weekend y'all! $10 says I have lots to tell you food wise when I get back!!!

-skinny biddy

Oh So Tired

I didn't go to the gym yesterday. After work I came home and sat in bed all night. Very very very tired from work and very sore.
Tonight I had a nail app so I didnt make the gym. Not that I had the energy anyway.
I'm so tired at the moment! Im frustrated- I want to be able to workout and be all systems go!
I'm thinking of pushing myself tonight to walk- just for 30 mins. Might make the difference. I still have to pack for my trip to Melbourne. Probably should do that tonight!!
I booked my 1 yr post op consultation. I said to the receptionist- whenever you can get me an app in march..... she came up with March 12th- exactly 1 year banded!! So I have to get organised to get my tests done.
I pbed again at work today. Its purely because I am trying to rush through my eating. I have 5 mins to eat my lunch. Doesn't work. So I have to think of a way to be able to sit and have at least 20 mins to eat.
Thats all for now. Very tired, a little annoyed at my body....

Weekend Wrap Up

Hey guys,

Had a really good weekend. After two shitty ones I deserved to have a nice one that was relaxing and in no ways stressful! Saturday was Valentines Day- felt a little stab in the heart but I got on with it- stayed with my friend Kristie and did dinner and a movie. Ate way too much crap in the space of 24 hrs. Had garlic prawns, popcorn, lollies, chocolate and yum cha. My body doesn't like it too much anymore. Right now I'm craving a huge bowl of salad and veggies. Mmmm..... what the fuck happend to me?
I worked out yesterday- I did 45 mins at the gym. I felt lazy missing that other 15 mins. Thats a good sign. Today I got home and would much preferred to have a sleep- but I jumped on the treadmill for 30 mins. I think the issue now with me cutting my workout times down a little might be boredom. So after I get back from my trip to Melbourne I am planning to start classes. Figure its better to start before my 12 week challenge so I'm not too sore right from the word go.
I have to look at the times of the classes but I know I really want to do step. Maybe fatburner too....
No change on scales. I KNOW its not all about the scales. But I would like to see the number go down instead of up. I know it will in a few weeks- I just gotta be patient. I emailed my dietician the basic idea of my daily food. Maybe I need to change it up- maybe my body is too used to it? Suggestions?
4 sleeps until I go to Melbourne! Yay

OH.MY.GOD.GOD.GOD.GOD.GOD!!

My aunty sent over some old clothes today for mum and I to try on. That in itself was amazing. In the past its been clothes sent for mum and my sister. So that was pretty rad!
The clothes themselves, werent crash hot. Leopard print and I arent friends. But I was trying them on, and they were fitting..... and................. THEY WERE SIZE 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One of the skirts was even a 12! I am in complete and utter denial. I think for awhile I will be. Its friggen awesome! So even though the scales say I've put on a kilo (its muscle baby!) I must have dropped a lot in cms....
Gym this morning. I was so crazy tired but I still went. I had my fitness test. Easy peasy. Had to see how many push ups I could do in a minute- I did 39 (im proud considering i never do them) and how many step ups in a minute (36). I also did 5 mins on the rower for the test. Ive never used it before but Im a fan. Will be using Sat when I go back. After the test I did an hr cardio. Really felt it this time. Pushing myself harder and harder :0)
So its all about the exercise for me.... if I keep up with the everything else seems to fall into place. I eat really well and feel really strong mentally and physically. My confidence definately benefits! Thats a huge positive for me!
As for the work pb incident. I am putting it down to mushrooms as the cause. Ive had a few issues with them in the past. Chicken is usually ok. The last few days band has been tighter. So that might have contributed also.
I might take some more piccies in the next few days for my photo gallery. I will for sure the day of the 12 week challenge! So super excited!
Valentines day this weekend. Argh. Thank fuck for my friend Kristie. We are spending it together. Hilariously seeing "Hes Just Not That Into You". I've never had a successful V day. My first ever V day when I was in a relationship was with my first love- and he broke up with me that day. Fun. I dont see the point in pressuring males to buy you flowers out of responsibilty. And I know Im not alone on that one.
I cant believe those pants were a 14, and the top too..... wow.......... 14...............

Still At It

Ok guy thing over with. Turns out he is a complete and utter low life that thought he would get his sister to write on my wall on Facebook that I was a fruitcake and I needed to "fuck off please and lose my number and and nice tits"....... wow......... I was wrong. All part of the learning. No more will be said on the matter. He doesn't deserve it.
Didn't exercise yesterday. Instead I went and had a masage. Haha.... today I did an hour cardio and work HARD!! My body loved the rest yesterday and rewarded me by craving a run on the treadmill, higher level on bike and likewise on the elliptical. Loving exercise. Love love love. How cool!
Food wise- yesterday I had my first major pb issue at work. I was eating chicken and veggies and got really really nauseous. So I left the room (poor Sharon then had 14 kids who had finished lunch and ready to pack away and make their beds all to herself!!) to throw up, went back to sweep floors, left room the throw up, went back to mop floors. Was sore for a bit afterwards. It was really hard because I had to keep getting on with things. I had kids talking to me and I was scared to answer in fear of throwing up. I was worried I was going to be sick in front of them too. I couldnt even think straight at one point........... I'm NEVER negative about the band. But that was a really awful experience.
So today I went a little safer and had ham, cheese and sweet mustard pickles on ryvitas. I had stuck issues with that also. So the question is.... what is causing the band issues? It cant be hormonal. It's not too tight because I havent had a fill for weeks. I'm putting it down too possibly because of exercise (discuss.... possible?) and stress. Stress from work, stress from the guy that I said I wouldnt talk about anymore that I KNOW my band was telling me to cut ties with because I was having issues everytime we were talking recently, stress from home life. I'm hoping now that the guy is gone that I feel a little better. Home life there is nothing I can do about.
We'll see how I go in the next few days. Tomorrow is my scary busy day at work so I am going to take something really easy to eat to work. I dont get lunch breaks so I gotta force it down whilst getting 14 kids their lunches.
Just you wait MEN.....wait until I've finished with this 12 week challenge.... theres a babe in here yet...

Smiles

Hey Guys,

So still gyming.... yesterday 45 mins (running late for an appointment) and 45 mins today. Loving the exercise. And so happy I signed up to the 12 week challenge. Going to work up the fitness until then- I want to be able to cope with working out 5 days a week. No burning out for me! Its costing me enough money- I know I won't bail on it!
Restriction is pretty sweet!! I pbed salmon last night- but it was all my fault from man stress. Gotta learn how to destress for my bands sake. Im never really hungry, portions are a prefect size. Very happy with that!
Work is pissing me off. Im not getting paid on time. I plan to talk to the boss tomorrow about it. Old Bridget wouldnt have been able to do that. Gotta love new me :0)
Plan of attack this week for the gym is
Monday- day off OR if I feel ok I'll do 30 mins
Tuesday- an hr cardio after work
Wednesday- treadmill at home for 30 mins
Thursday- an hr cardio at gym
Friday- night off
Saturday- hr cardio
Sunday- walk

I LOVE how strong my body feels!!!
Not sure what is happening with the guy. Its all over the place. Hes coming, I dont know when. Im over all the place with it. We are, then we aren't. Ive come to the conclusion that what is meant to be, will be. I cant force anything. So we'll see what happens...

Frustrated

Feeling positive.... but still sick. Been a week tomorrow. Its not band related. No issues with it being too tight. I will being seeing my surgeon next week if this is still going on. I am worried about it now. I feel sick after I eat. A tummy ache.
Went to the gym for an hrs cardio today. I havent started weights because I am a little hesitant. I have a bulging disk and its been really really good lately. I dont want to stuff that up and have issues (not be able to workout or make work harder than it is).
I joined the gym's 12 week challenge today. $50 a week for 12 weeks.... personal training session once a week- you earn points for each time you are at the gym and the cms that you lose. You go in the draw to win $10 000. You are also in teams to help with motivation. One of the mums at preschool has signed up to do so I'll have a gym buddy! Looking forward to it!! So when that starts (March 2nd) I'll have a PT once a week and under her care I will start weights.
Goal is to get AT LEAST 10-15 kilos off in that 3 months. So I feel get a fill just before hand also. Portions could be cut a teeny bit.

Food today
Nothing until lunch.... felt sick
L- 4 ryvitas with vegemite, cottage cheese and tomato
S- cashews
D- quiche and veg

Hoping to feel better soon!
Thinking weekly weigh ins. No scales obessing. Over that...

So much for the record...

No PB since Dec 17th.... felt pretty impressed with that.... YEAH.... funny.... talking about that tonight at the support group.... came home- PB!! Made pita pizza- never had issues. However Dad thought he'd be thoughtful and buy the "lighter choice" pita bread. Sorry- doesnt work. I knew that going in. Funny that- try and be healthy....

Still got an upset stomach. No interest in food. Its not band related. Bec from work feels the same. We both have since Friday- we worked in the same room Friday. Maybe a bug? Why are we still sick?

Feeling better today than I have in the last week. A few reasons why I was so low. Pms is a bitch... we all know that... had this weird stomach bug thingy which makes me feel under the weather, work is horrid and finally....... the guy. Coming to see me, he says hes got it planned and won't tell me when. Plans to just call me up and tell me he's here. Hes staying the weekend at a motel nearby. Its freaking me out because it's real now. I was really worried about it all. But I've decided- whatever happens, happens. If its meant to be, it will. And I will learn from the experience anyway!

Gym tomorrow. An hr cardio!

Whats up?

Hi Guys,

Been missing in action as of late. Felt so freaking flat and low that I didn't even know how to string a sentence together for this blog. Been off since Friday night. Thinking "oh its just pms". Turns out my friend at work has felt the same as me (low, teary, numb, no appetite, wanting to be sick) since Friday night also. We've put it down to work. It's not fun. It's stressful, its boring. We get no support whatsoever.
Also guy issues. Does he, doesn't he. Whats happening? When are we meeting? Then the old scared fat Bridget was trying to come out and say "he won't like you, you arent worth it." Also the scaredness factor. This is so new. First time putting myself out there and actually wanting it to work out. The other dates I haven't really cared. Snapping outta that now. I AM worth it. In fact- is he worth it? Meh.... go with the flow :0)
I didn't go to the gym yesterday afternoon like I promised myself. I was exhausted after work. Felt really emotional and frustrated. So I jumped on the treadmill for 30 mins. I did intervals of 2 mins running and 5 mins walking. I FELT SO MUCH BETTER AFTERWARDS! I have done 15 mins tonight (couldn't miss Packed To The Rafters) and will maybe do another 15 later on tonight.
Food wise has been a little "blah". Ive felt sick in the stomach since Friday. Havent had much of an appetite. Eating though. My co worker is on my back about food. Shes worried that Im not eating and doesnt want me to get sick (because that will mean shes gotta pick up the slack if I get sick). Everytime I eat I don't feel right. Band is ok. No issues with that. Just weird tummy rumblings after I eat.
Anyway.... all for now.....

Still Meh

Pms is a bitch. Getting me down majorly. Can't wait for it to be over with.
Went to gym yesterday- only did 45 mins because I was running late for an appointment.
Food is shitty at the moment. Having major pms food bitchyness. Plus weekends are killer for me. Being home I tend to not eat at regular times and not make proper food choices. That's the next thing that I need to work on.
Gym tomorrow after work. Im hoping that it isnt too full on at work tomorrow. We will have 7 new little ones and that can get kinda hectic!
Tammy- thanks so much for the feedback- I appreciate it. I eat those to go meals hot- but usually by the time I get to eat it at work its semi cold. Either way they are delish! I bought some more today. Let me know how you like them!
Hoping this mood is gone by tomorrow. Maybe its hanging around because I'm home bored... I dunno.... we'll see...