Been missing in action as of late. Felt so freaking flat and low that I didn't even know how to string a sentence together for this blog. Been off since Friday night. Thinking "oh its just pms". Turns out my friend at work has felt the same as me (low, teary, numb, no appetite, wanting to be sick) since Friday night also. We've put it down to work. It's not fun. It's stressful, its boring. We get no support whatsoever.
Also guy issues. Does he, doesn't he. Whats happening? When are we meeting? Then the old scared fat Bridget was trying to come out and say "he won't like you, you arent worth it." Also the scaredness factor. This is so new. First time putting myself out there and actually wanting it to work out. The other dates I haven't really cared. Snapping outta that now. I AM worth it. In fact- is he worth it? Meh.... go with the flow :0)
I didn't go to the gym yesterday afternoon like I promised myself. I was exhausted after work. Felt really emotional and frustrated. So I jumped on the treadmill for 30 mins. I did intervals of 2 mins running and 5 mins walking. I FELT SO MUCH BETTER AFTERWARDS! I have done 15 mins tonight (couldn't miss Packed To The Rafters) and will maybe do another 15 later on tonight.
Food wise has been a little "blah". Ive felt sick in the stomach since Friday. Havent had much of an appetite. Eating though. My co worker is on my back about food. Shes worried that Im not eating and doesnt want me to get sick (because that will mean shes gotta pick up the slack if I get sick). Everytime I eat I don't feel right. Band is ok. No issues with that. Just weird tummy rumblings after I eat.
Anyway.... all for now.....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Posted by Bridget Parker at 5:57 PM