Thursday, May 8, 2008

CHANGE we can believe in....

We hold in our hands, the most precious gift of all: Freedom. The freedom to express our art. Our love. The freedom to be who we want to be. We are not going to give that freedom away and no one shall take it from us!
Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Cicely, 1992

Lost netball tonight. Played a full game. Felt like I could play another, however I was Goal Shooter and wasn't very aggressive. Something I will definately work on. Don't let men push me around, now its women who like to elbow me in the boobs.
Tomorrow morning if I wake up feeling half decent I will go to step class.
Was trying on clothes tonight. First time since in long time I've been in those dreaded Kmart change rooms with the shocking lights that are super unkind to you when looking in the mirror. The sight looking back at me wasn't good at all. The girl in the mirror had shocking stretch marks and a saggy tummy. I also realised I needed new bras. Lol. But instead of being depressed about the sight that I saw, I felt hopeful. Knowing that this time next year I will not be seeing that person.
11 days until my next fill. Looking forward to it! I'm doing what the Dr asked me to do and waiting the full month before having a fill. I can't wait until I'm at the point where small amounts fill me up. I'm still eating what I feel as too much. I'm not eating in the mornings as I really dont feel like it. Nights is when I eat the most. Maybe because I feel more relaxed? Night has always been my problem. Need to fix that one.
Not much else to report guys. I'm pretty happy at the moment. Job starts soon so looking forward to having money. Will try and save, just a few things I have on my list of wants. Starting to plan my 21st, I know it's only May now and August is awhile away but I want to organise it early so I can try and get most of my people there. Guy front, well there aren't any. And thats ok. It will happen when it happends. I want to meet a nice guy and that might take some time. I'm starting to make more friends, friends who I enjoy being around and want to do stuff with me. John Mayer released snippets of new songs and that ALWAYS makes me happy. Lol.
It's hard to blog when things are going well. Hopefully this is a re-occuring problem I have. I promise not to let weeks go by without posting. I hate it when I've started reading someones blog and they vanish.
So the only things I need to sort out are food choices and more exercise. Then I'll be a happy little chappy.

Hope all is well in band world.

-skinny smiley biddy :0)


LapBandGirl said...

Sounds like you're in a really good place right now Bridget! Awesome! I think this fill will be the one that helps out the most with your portion sizes and night time eating... although even with me being at full restriction, I notice that I am definitely tighter in the morning and it loosens during the day. Night time I can eat more, not a whole lot more, but I can eat solids. Breakfast is just a protein shake and that's it.

LBG xx

Diz said...

Good info. Looking forward to getting banded. Thanks for the tips Bridget and Lapbandgirl.

mjwdec73 said...

Oh God, new bras. That isn't a fun shopping trip. I've tried.

Reading this you do sound like you are in a good place - yay!!