Thursday, May 29, 2008

Holy Cow!!! And I'm not talking about me!!

Well well well! I guess I got a answer to my question! Seems I have a lot of readers! All this positivity must be rubbing off on my beautfiful band Barbie and those bittersweet scales! Weighing in this morning and I've lost 14.1 kilos! Now remember, I did say a little while ago I had lost that much but I got it all wrong with the difference in my scales and Drs scales. So this is the geniune thing! Wow! How exciting!!

Here's yesterday's food diary:
B- 2 eggs and 4 cruskits
L- spinich and feta pastie
D- Apricot Chicken
After Dinner- V8 juice with multivitamin and iron tablet

I need to work on getting more veggies in there I know. Will focus on that. I don't snack anymore which is great. I feel like I am eating sensible amounts of food. Fill isnt for two weeks but I am fine with that. Next fill will once again be a small one. I don't want to be majorly restricted, pbing all the time, eating super small amounts. Plus, I am losing weight at the moment so why would I restrict myself further?
Exercise front..... netball last night. I can really see a difference with my playing. I still have ways to go- I need to run more. But I am getting there. Not other exercise :0( I spend Mon,Tues, Wed running around kids at preschool? Does that count? I am going to write myself up a timetable today for exercise now that I am sort of settling into my new work routine.
What else has been going on??? Oh!! I am being interviewed about my lap band! It's for a uni student. Will post it on blog when I get the article. It's pretty exciting!
I'm looking at the ticker each day and can't believe how many people are coming to look at my site! Ah-mazzz-inggg!
I am at peace with myself. I haven't felt this way in a very long time. If in fact ever. About two years ago when I was on Duromine I lost about 10 the time I was a lot smaller anyway. I got down to about 95. But I was so crazy on Duromine I never really got to appreciate it.
I really do now. It's not even the little things like putting on a top and knowing it'll be looser on me, or needing belts with most of my jeans. It's the internal change going on. It takes me back to my favourite quote:

"Not only is another world possible, but she is on her way. On a quiet day I can hear her breathing" - Arundathi Roy

I feel now like that other woman trapped inside me all this time is finally emerging. I feel more like her now than I ever have before. I feel that when I get to my goal weight I will probably have a "goodbye party" or type of funeral for old me. I'm thinking honestly I might get a old photo of me at highest weight and an old top and bury them in garden. It's very symbolic. And it would be a great reminder all the time the old Bridget is gone. And we aren't going to see her EVER again.
Now just to clarify. There are awesome things about old Bridget. But new Bridget has them too. I am not going to be burrying all of my good bits. I will keep them and just add to them. More confidence, better body image, better self esteem, more postivity, ability to talk to guys.
Ok I'm done for the day. I love my life. I love my life. I love my life.

-the new bridget :0)
Does that mean I've officially mentally turned into skinny biddy????


mjwdec73 said...

Reading this I got goosebumps. I'm so ridiculously proud of you it isn't funny. You rock!