Sunday, January 18, 2009

Its back to business....

Went away this weekend. I've come back a little worse for wear- my neck and shoulders are killing me from bad pillows and too much shopping. How sad. Lol.
I made a huge realisation this weekend. Something clicked.
I was walking around the city looking at everyone. First though was "wow! everyone has cute shoes." then I realised I still felt like fat Bridget. And that I have been comfortable the last few months with my weight. But now I am not. I am ready to get back into properly working to get the last (hardest) 20 kilos off.
I went to Dymocks and had a look around. Something lead me to the health section, then to what I call the "self help shit" section. When I got to the health section I laughed... the rows and rows of books that claim to be the best diet for weight loss. And I went over in my head all the books I had at home sitting, collecting dust claiming the same thing. I realised- its not diet girl. Its your head. get your head right, everything else will follow."

So over I went to have a look at the "head books". I picked up two that really spoke to me. Both written by Louise L. Hay. First is called "Love yourself, heal your life workbook" Which I plan to actually write in. And the second is "Meditations to heal your life". That one is brilliant. The passage on "body" really got me. I've re read it several times... it says:
"My body is a good friend that I take loving care of"
I love my body.
My body is perfect for me at this time. My body weight is also perfect. I am exactly where I choose to be. I am beautiful, and every day I become more attractive. This concept used to be very hard for me to accept, yet things are changing and now that I am treating myself as if I were someone who was deeply loved. I'm learning to reward myself with healthy little treats and pleasures now and again. Little acts of love nuture me, doing things that I really like, such as quiet time, a walk in nature, a hot soothing bath, or anything that really gives me pleasure. I enjoy caring for myself and to be my own best friend. I know my body is filled with star light and that I sparkle and glow everywhere I go.
Part that got me: "My body is perfect for me at this time. I am exactly where I choose to be."
IT IS SO TRUE. Just think about it in your own situation.......
I've had a very hard few months. I think I needed time away from the focus of weight loss to really reflect. I have done such an amazing job (YES! I am praising myself for my brilliant work) and am such a different person that I needed this time to reflect. I acknowledge and accept that I needed that time. And now I am ready for the next step.
I haven't been under 90 since I was 16. I am the weight I am at the moment to learn lessons. I have learnt them. My body and mind are now in line and are ready to take me to the next step.
I do not fear this next step like I have for the last few months. I feel excited and empowered. I wonder what opportunites will arise from this?!?!
Brilliant realisation. I am motivated. I am looking forward to the gym. I am pumped for this.
Fill tomorrow- wonder if I get can .1? Only need a teeny bit to curb the portions. I am in what I call the "neutral stage". Where I am not hungry, but not full.
Bring it on!!!!!!!


samib85 said...

girlfriend im at the same point !!! i know i've lost a shitload and i'm still not happy. we need to get our bitch arses into gear and start bring sexy back.. it's time to shine in 2009 baby !!! xx

to b ME said...

YAY!!! Well done hun, soooo stoked for you.... U r ready to make the next huge step on ur amazing journey! Very big turning point for u... maybe that lapbandforthemind is helpin u already?!
happy for ya xox Catch up soon
P.S.... u have very cute shoes! hehe.... And are NOT Fat Bridgy anymore... but i understand!

Melanie said...

Great meditation piece and some great learning going on at the moment. Mmm, I don't know what other actor could have played Edward - not denying that the director's choice was a hunk - I think it was mainly the hair putting me off! By the way if you liked Twlight, have you read the author's version from Edward's perpective - if not you can view it at

The background to this story is t

(Sorry if you already had this info - I just loved Edward's version and can't wait for the Midnight Sun book to come out!)

SkinnieMinnie said...

Yes F is for Fuck Off Out Of My Life lol you're so right and already I am making better supportive friends!

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear you sounding so positive about yourself, achievements and goals! Go get 'em!

Diz said...

Great post. Good luck with the fill tomorrow.