Friday, April 11, 2008

Holy Hell!

Wow! What a night!
First I have my second (and worst so far) PB (Productive Burp) from the leftover pasta from last nights dinner. I wasn't pleasant at all and had to use a little coke to bring it up because it was stuck. CHEW CHEW CHEW!! Why doesn't the brain work sometimes? Geez Louise!
Secondly, Mum tells me she's been to the doctors and she has to get a biopsy because the mark on her chest looks to be a skin cancer and they are worried it is deep.
Thirdly, the sister is off her crazy pills (i dont think she reads this, if you are reading I love you baby but you know that you are bi polar and need the drugs) and is behaving very erraticly. She has lost her license (after having it for less than 8 weeks) for speeding, lost her wallet, lost her keys and decided to take off tonight without telling anyone where she was. So we called around trying to find her. It's scary because you never know what she is going to be like. At the moment she is on a high so think's she is made of steel and can't be broken.
Fourthy, I got a call from a very close friend who I haven't spoken to in a few months. She moved away at the end of last year so it's been hard to keep in contact. But one of the first things she said to me was that she was proud of me which meant a lot.

Phew! What a night. I don't think I'll be able to sleep for some hours. I hope tomorrow isn't like this!

Food wise:
Breakfast- Sweet Thai Chilli Chicken Wrap
Lunch- 2 cruskits with roast beef and hommus
Snack- that fucking dreaded pasta!!!
Dinner- Sushi roll x2 and yummy seaweed salad
Snack- a few little bits of choc

Kristie told me a valuable bit of advice tonight. I might not feel I have the restriction but I still need to eat small bites. Will remember every time a piece of food touches my lips.
I have three weeks until next fill, maybe I should move it forward??? I dunno if I am eating too much.

-skinny stressed biddy :0)


mjwdec73 said...

Wow - poor you. Sounds like a bundle of stress. I really hope that things have settled down a bit for you and your mum and your sister are OK.

Kristie is right - tiny tiny bites. Now, if only I could remember to do that.