Monday, April 28, 2008

These Boots Weren't Made For Walking

Damn these new boots!!! Walked around shops all day and I'm in agony! I've never owned boots before and no one told me you don't just put em on, didn't realise you needed socks or tights. Grrr... learnt the bloody hard way.
Things on the home front are still shitty. Crazy sister went crazier....... love her to bits but the girl needs help. Especially after nearly running me over with her car last night.
Money is super tight also so my mood isn't as good as I'd like it to be. Mum is being amazing as usual. She said take it as a positive that I want to go out more (hence money- going out means money).
Food wise here's my day:

Breakfast: (was at lunchtime- wasnt hungry until then) prawn cutlets and chips (yeah not nutritional at all i know)
Lunch- was nothing as breakfast was at lunch time!! lol
Snack- boost pineapple passion juice
Dinner- Herb and Garlic Fish with leftover potato bake and veggies

I know some (or most im not sure) people with weight issues run to food in a crisis. I've had MAJOR crisis' over the last few days. And not once have I run to food for comfort. I never have. My issues with weight come from my illnesses (Insulin resistance and pcos). I simply look at a piece of bread and gain 2 kilos. So I think it makes things easier for me.
No exercise today. Did lots of walking around with boots (grrr) I know this doesnt really count. But I was up pretty early and usually that means I come home and have a nana nap in the afternoon. Nup! Not today! Definately means my health is improving. Tomorrow I'm working so I won't get in any exercise. Excuse, maybe. But child care is a bitch! Also, if I was to it would be tomorrow night, but want to be home for Dad the night before his surgery. Go over a few things with him. Man its happening so fast! Mum wants me to write a list of things she needs to get for post op.
Any vegetarian bandsters out there???? Any advice would be super awesome!! Dad is a vego so wanna make sure that he's taken care of. I know our dietician is amazing so he'll be right. But any tips would be nice.
I've been thinking a lot the last few days about blogging land. Blogging for me is a way at the end of the day to decompress. To see how I've done overall in my day. It's my diary- it just happends to be online. To me so far I haven't really thought about the people that are reading it. But the other day I became consicous of it. Hence taking the photos down. I'm still a little embarased about the way I am. So until I can confidently say "this was the old me and I dont look anything like I used to" I'm keeping them off blog. I've lost nearly 15 kilos but not a lot of people at all have commented on the loss. I think that its because in the last few months when I put on that 15 kilos I hid myself away from the world. So they wouldn't know me that way. So waiting for that 90 kilo mark. I KNOW in my heart of hearts that I will be a different person then in so many ways.

Wanted to post my favourite quote again. Something that Myf told me I should be saying to myself everyday. And I will.

"Not only is another world possible, but she is on her way. On a quiet day I can hear her breathing"
Arundthi Roy

-skinny sore fucking feet biddy :0)


mjwdec73 said...

Ouch - sore feet - poor you. Nothing is worse than sore feet - it amazes me how grumpy it makes me.

I think there are a couple of threads on the forums for vego bandsters - I'll see if I can track them down for you.

Go you for having the energy and not needing the nanna nap - that is phenomonal!

Take care of yourself

Myf xoxo

katie boo said...

hey hun

i know i havent known u for a long time but i can see changes in the time that ive known u and thats a fantastic effort.. just keep remembering.. we are fighters.. we will win the fight, no matter how hard it gets.. i have to keep reminding myself of that. the journey is just beginning.
loves ya.
- twins! :P

Emma said...

ouchy wouchy feet! My boots are super comfy but they kill if I wear them all day and night.

You're doing really well, keep on cruising!


LapBandGirl said...

Hey Babes...

You cracked the 110's! That's fantastic! WooHoo! You'll be in the 90's before you know it. And let me tell you, it is a great feeling when you get there! :)

One of the things I have definitely noticed is that I don't need naps anymore, and I don't get majorly tired in the afternoon. I can be up by 5:30am and go until 9:30pm that evening. I sleep soooooo much better, especially when I exercise. You'll keep discovering these new exciting things... it's so much fun!


LBG xx