Saturday, October 11, 2008

It's Time

(This is what I want... except I want it in shades of blue and the word "Clarity" written underneath it)

I am ready for my tattoo.

I've wanted to get "Clarity" since I was 17. But I've always been so scared of the pain. For the last month I've been thinking about it everyday.
Clarity has huge meaning for me. Clairty means "imperfections of a diamond" and clearness. Its also a John Mayer song. In the song he sings
"By the time I recognise this moment, this moment will be gone. But I will bend the light pretending, that it somehow lingured on."
Everytime something important in my life happends, it plays in my head- when I was walking out the gates of school for last time, whilst I was being wheeled into the pre op room before my banding, and most importantly, the last time I saw my Grandad. I was saying goodbye to him. And I was scared. I wanted to say goodbye as quickly as possible and went to flee the room as soon as I could. I got to the door and the song line came into my head. I stopped, turned around and took in the moment. The fact I would never see him again. And because of that song, it gave me that moment- I will never forget it. So "Clarity" and me have a huge connection. And I want it to be with me not only in mind and spirit, but body forever.
I want a Koi fish with it, I LOVE LOVE LOVE what Koi fish represent....

"The Koi is also able to fight the current of the water and swim upstream. This can be interpreted in two ways:
1) Being a non-conformist – Koi swimming upstream can be interpreted as showing the philosophy of non-conformism because of the fact that the Koi does not “go with the flow”. This can mean a person is very independent minded and does not do things the way they are expected of him or her. Swimming upstream can mean that a person is not easily influenced by others and does what he or she wants.
2) Strength in time of adversity – Koi fish also symbolizes persistence and the willingness to go on even though you are being swept away. It also symbolizes surpassing expectations. The Koi fish swimming upriver can show that a person has overcome various obstacles and not only does he or she keep standing, but he or she has come out victorious."

There is also the story of the koi fish swimming up the Rainbow (Dragon) River, turning into a dragon at the end. To me, that seems super symbolic. I've always strived to get to the end, find "clarity" and I now feel I am closer than ever in my life.

Dad wants to get a tattoo also(Manly Sea Eagle) so we are going to go together.
You'll find the photos of my hair and dress at my photo gallery... sorry guys, it didnt publish last night, it saved as a draft. What do you think?
-skinny "soon to be inked but Im so scared of the pain" biddy :0)


Dianne said...

Hi Bridg
Love the hair & the dress!! you're looking fantastic!! The tatt is fabulous. It has so much meaning for you and thats all that matters. They don't hurt too much. Can't wait to see the pics when it's done....

keep smiling...


Melanie said...

I don't know about the tattoo but the sentiments that go with it are wonderful - only you know what you need to do with your body. It will be wonderful no matter which way you go. Mel

Diz said...

Don't worry about the pain Bridge...if this is what you want, then go for it. Physical pain from the Tat is a momentary thing, but the "Clarity" will last a lifetime. And I think the blues coloring will be beautiful. Life is a rollercoaster ride. You throw up your hands and scream "Wheeee" during good parts, and you feel sick to your stomach and want to "hurl" during the bad. Fortunately, the "Wheeee" parts outnumber the "hurl" parts. You go girl...and don't forget to post a picture of that bad boy for us!!!

LapBandGirl said...

You know what... getting a tatoo is so painful, but it's a really weird type of pain. I have 3 tattoo's and I enjoyed and hated getting all of them... and I want more. You are brave getting one done on your foot... getting it done their, I've heard, is one of the most painful places.
When I have kids, I'm going to have their Initials and DOB tattoo'd somewhere... not sure where though..

You go girl!

LBG xx

mjwdec73 said...

I like the image, and I love the meaning. Go for it!